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How did I get myself into this?

theres nothing wrong with being concerned but 2 8ths in a month an 1/2 isn't that bad. Real coke heads do an 8th a day , so your not out of control. I really can't relate to this because i'm not a fan of coke and its a waste of money to me but the eagle flies at dawn.
 
You depressed over just two fucking eight balls in like six weeks. That's hardly a habit in my book. Right now your on the border line of starting to use daily and in a greater quantity. If your so depressed just quit now while your hardly into it. Blow can be great but you can't let it get to you. Your doing in six weeks what the average user does in one week. So chill out...
 
I agree with you Snitch. I always used to think after a few days of doing one drug or another "man, i just wasted that time and coulda done this this and this.....etc." But the thing is that when you sober up and think like that you gotta understand that you just filled that time, rather than accomplished anything. Drugs help time pass much of the time. The more recreational ones that is. I know that whenever I come out of a drug haze I can never really (and I think this holds true for any drug experience) remember wut I did during that time or what I thought. Doing some meth over a weekend would be equivalent to saying" I'm not really gonna do much, just chill with friends a little and basically spend this whole weekend altered and kind of taking a chuck out of my normal reality, kind of like a whole or gap in your memory".
Uhh..ya excuse the meth induced rambling
 
Jo Mamma I want to thank you for the advice. And for everyone else that keeps asking the same questions:
1. I know I'm not addicted.
2. I am upset because I thought coke was disgusting and now I do not mind it.
3.I feel like I wasted my weekend because I am the type of person always doing something exciting and new and all I did was get fucked up on Fri. and sleep Sat. and Sun.
(Does that clear things up a little snitch)
 
you are addicted mentally...if you dont want to do coke but ur doing it cuz you are feening...take some x and that might stop the feening...if you keep doing it you will become an aids infested 20doller whore that shoots 5 grams aday
 
Christina-
If you feel like that after 1 weekend then don't do it again---find something more simple like weed. The person who said weed/heroin is nuts i would love to know what they do for a living. As weird as it sounds be respectful of drugs because if you go down the wrong road it's very tough to ask for directions home!!!! Have your priorities in check if your in college or have a successful career make sure you never loose sight of your goals and then you can have fun getting fucked up with no worries:-)
 
Christina-
If you had a truly bad experience with coke find something more simple like weed. The person who recommended weed/heroin is crazy!! I would love to know what they did for a living. My advice is as long as you have goals--whether it's finishing college or climbing the corporate ladder then have fun, get fucked up but always respect drugs. If you feel successful in your everyday life then when you get fucked up the guilt won't overwhelm you.
 
A similar thing happened to me when I got my new connect. Just be strong smoke weed, take benzos mabey drink a few beers and eat some food and vitamins and you should be ok.
 
Originally posted by Cristina:
[QB]I feel like I wasted my weekend because I am the type of person always doing something exciting and new and all I did was get fucked up on Fri. and sleep Sat. and Sun.
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Well start doing meth!! You should smoke or eat it (snorting is not a good habit).
You'll see that your weekend will be very interesting and exciting again.
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cristina... if this is how you feel, then stop doing it NOW. trust me, in no way are two eight balls in a month an addiction. i just spent my last six months or so battling coke addiction, and as pathetic as it sounds, the fact that i haven't done any coke in over a week and a half is an amazing thing.
my point being: if you're unhappy with the way you feel, just stop doing it. you should be controlling the drug, not letting it control you.
 
TO FORGOTTEN BLUELIGHTER: I TRULY DOUBT THAT THE PERSON WHO SAID SMOKE WEED/HEROIN HAS A BETTER JOB THAN ME----TRUST ME I GRADUATED FROM UNIVERSITY OF PENNSYLVANIA---NOT TO MENTION I WAS ACCEPTED AT BROWN UNIVERSITY AS WELL---I ALSO ALREADY HAVE A MASTERS DEGREE AND A TEAM OF 25 PEOPLE WORKING UNDER ME AND I AM ONLY 25 (MY EMPLOYEES ARE OLDER THAN ME BY RANGING FROM 10 YEARS TO 22 YEARS.
 
rbnms...well aren't we special. Do we all get to whip out our intellectual/monetary dicks over this issue to decide who is correct or actually talk about facts.
Incidently did they teach you to argue so convincingly with capslock at your whateverthefuck university. Is this master's degree in neuroscience or any other field that might relate to FACTS about heroin usage.
There was an excelent article (think it was in the sf examiner but maybe gaurdian) about drug usage by programmers in the tech industry. I gurantee some were making more than you. I will also point out that a large percentage of doctors are opiate addicts, and some very famous/succesfull historical figures have been as well. This issue though has been discussed in detail so no need to rehash it.
And fuck columbian drug lords probably have insane drug habits and they make any salary earned here look piddly (if you are a columbian drug lord posting to bluelight feel free to hook me up)
What I really wanted to post about is why does everyone say "sucking dick for coke" as if this is the sign of a horrible addiction. Its only sucking dick people and it *is* coke. You can pay me in dopamine any day.
You can always close your eyes and pretend its a lollypop, pretending your euphoric isn't anywhere near as easy.
Now we all know to use our stims in moderation. Thanks for the information.
You usually do something exciting interesting. Valid arguments for how you can do better than direct bio-chemical stimulation are now being accepted (granted coke isn't the best in the world but the fact that you activated nuerons with chemicals is hardly evidence of a bad weekend).
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Since this topic is entierly offtopic anyway I have a more interesting question to ask.
Siren do you actually work at a waffle house?
Does anyone who is not in fact a drug user work at waffle houses?
 
Originally posted by Cristina:
1. I know I'm not addicted.
2. I am upset because I thought coke was disgusting and now I do not mind it.
3.I feel like I wasted my weekend because I am the type of person always doing something exciting and new and all I did was get fucked up on Fri. and sleep Sat. and Sun.
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I'm so depressed and jealous that you went to UPenn and Brown. Man I feel like shit about myself and life. Let me bow down before you and polish your shoes oh mighty one.
 
TO FORGOTTEN BLUELIGHTER: I TRULY DOUBT THAT THE PERSON WHO SAID SMOKE WEED/HEROIN HAS A BETTER JOB THAN ME----TRUST ME I GRADUATED FROM UNIVERSITY OF PENNSYLVANIA---NOT TO MENTION I WAS ACCEPTED AT BROWN UNIVERSITY AS WELL---I ALSO ALREADY HAVE A MASTERS DEGREE AND A TEAM OF 25 PEOPLE WORKING UNDER ME AND I AM ONLY 25 (MY EMPLOYEES ARE OLDER THAN ME BY RANGING FROM 10 YEARS TO 22 YEARS.
BULLSHIT.
A masters degree at 25 is quite a formidable accomplishment. Why would someone with such an impressive education post in caps, use chop sentences, avoid quotation marks, miss silly things like the closing bracket, and use '---' where actual punctuation would do the job?
Go away little boy.
(edit) Never mind. Just checked my email. I could have a masters degree too, for a very small cash outlay. I retract my objection.
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Its only sucking dick people and it *is* coke....
You can always close your eyes and pretend its a lollypop..
ill stick to using cash for payment.
yes it is coke and it isnt cheap but please people dont sell yourself to grains.. you will live to regret it.
addiction aside, coke is schizo shit! if you cant keep it on the side, then leave it for a while. otherwise you'll wake up with more problems than you could ever have imagined.
CRISTINA, you dont think your addicted?
you ARE! denial is a common sign of addiction.
like me, your not hopelessly addicted or anything but do you want the fiending to get any WORSE?
to those that say its not possible to get mentally addicted (cos cocaine isnt physically addictive) having used 3.5grams in 6 weeks, then i think you should slap your dealers.
drugs are an individual thing.
cocaine has the potential to.. well you all know what.
i dont want to scare you, but for me the major things that keep me of coke is..
-it will deteriorate whatever body part you use to absorb it- and you always want more!
-it can cause weird shizo thoughts, especially when mixed with weed (and i use the weed to keep me off the coke midweek)
-it does fuck your heart (particularly valves)- majorly
-and for you my dear, it will fuck your uterus (sp?).
but dont take it from me, read it from independant sources within the internet - theres plently of studies published online for you to absorb and balance as you please.
i dont take notice of some of the shit comming from these posts as anything to do with harm reduction, some of you just remind me of my arrogant cokeboys who have rotting noses, deteriorating gums- and have moved onto crack cos they cant stop.
i know its very hard to say no, so i avoid them when i can. and buy it rarely, no more than 1g at a time.
hey i like it and sometimes i love it but i got more to live for. i hope you do to.
peace.
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This is way off track but, "what the hell"
Why do people think if you do drugs you can't be a goal oriented, career minded individual! Guess what? Most of your upper-class "working" stiffs all have drug habits, whether it be drinking, snorting meth or coke, doing heroin all day long, taking multiple doses of Valium to put up with their GodDamn hired help, or just drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes to feed there body what it needs. They are all fucking drugs and when done in moderation can be safe and harmless.
I have been doing the shit for years and after nearly dropping out of highschool years ago, I put my mind to what I wanted to do "_MAKE SOME FUCKING MONEY_" and I haven't looked back since. I could guarentee I make more money then you, and your fuckin mom put together!! All I do is sit at the fucking computer all day....Everyday....and if you can do that without drugs....I think you do to many of them
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I can *kind of relate* I was anti coke, I didnt have the conections. Well now i have the hook-ups & I'm not sure why I do it. So strange ( perhaps it's that female DNA thing, PhreeX).
I do not see the point in snorting it cause I dont feel a thing , so I IV it, so I get maybe a 2 minuite rush, if that. Messed up veins, not a 'social' why of adminerstration etc.....
Aaanyway that said, I think I'll go bang the pathetic crumbs I have left!
 
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