i guess since 2 weeks i have problems with sleep and recovery. im sleeping every night and i sleep 7 hours but its a bad qualit of sleep.
i feel quite anxious today and stiff andlil bit irritaded io guess due too overtraining and too much 5htp.
i have this package full of lormetazepam since 2 weeks unopened in my shelter.
normally i would eat them like smarties but since im taking 5 htp im afraid to destroy the 5htp progress .
Im not a regular benzo user but when i have benzos i take like 20 pills in 1-2 week with 2mg.
like i said smarties.
thats why im afraid to take one, i dont wanna open the box of pandora lol.
but i need some sleep i have so much to do tomorrow and without proper sleep i dont have enpugh eneryg.
the 20th of august is the deadline of my application maybe thats why im so anxious.
i dont know why but i feel like the anxiety paralized me lil bit.
honestly i dont know where it comes from.
well i know the reason but i dont know why it comes just from one sec to another.
in the moment i have so much future anxiety about how my study will go how my life will go i couldnt get into med school omggg when im thinking over it oi could eat that whole pack of benzos haha.
i feel quite anxious today and stiff andlil bit irritaded io guess due too overtraining and too much 5htp.
i have this package full of lormetazepam since 2 weeks unopened in my shelter.
normally i would eat them like smarties but since im taking 5 htp im afraid to destroy the 5htp progress .
Im not a regular benzo user but when i have benzos i take like 20 pills in 1-2 week with 2mg.
like i said smarties.
thats why im afraid to take one, i dont wanna open the box of pandora lol.
but i need some sleep i have so much to do tomorrow and without proper sleep i dont have enpugh eneryg.
the 20th of august is the deadline of my application maybe thats why im so anxious.
i dont know why but i feel like the anxiety paralized me lil bit.
honestly i dont know where it comes from.
well i know the reason but i dont know why it comes just from one sec to another.
in the moment i have so much future anxiety about how my study will go how my life will go i couldnt get into med school omggg when im thinking over it oi could eat that whole pack of benzos haha.