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How careful do I need to be with mixing diazepam and alcohol.

benladdie3000 said:
I 100% agree with you but I can't go on. Everyday I wake up either angry or in tears. My relationship is struggling because of it, and iv tried going back to work (im a nurse in the UK) and I collapsed in tears during a training day. I miss them so so much, and our bond was so close, they were my life, I tailored my whole life to being a dad and it just tortures and disturbs me daily. Even my partner and my friends say I'm not me anymore. I also look on my social media and it's glaringly obvious if you know the timeline and scroll through the pictures that iv gone from being a very happy family orientated guy with a career and a good home , to a complete and utter mess. Iv tried a lot of things from meds, to self medication, alcohol, gym, martial arts, spending time with my partners children (I know it's not a substitute), treating myself with retail therapy, volunteering my time, going back to work, counselling, seeing a psychiatric nurse weekly, talking to my girlfriend. Also, my nan who basically may aswel have been my mum left us in may (suicide) at the age of 69. And I don't have an outlet to turn to anymore. My ex has completely and systematically bit by bit broken me down as a punishment for leaving her, this ranges from at first limiting my time with my children to when she wanted to go out partying to eventually cutting it out completely and telling me to go court, making false allegations up about me and writing horrible stuff about me on socials. I just want out
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Bond between you and children didn't magically go away but it will if you kill yourself. Idk man, you felt on your skin what it means when someone close to you sucides.
 
You are a nurse and don't know how to suicide? amazing

You've just said that bereavement can cause devaststating effects on people, and yet you love your kids so much that's what you're gonna do to them x 1000 due to suicide being the worst possible bereavement

You are gonna try again by merely taking an extra 100mg valium, when the last attempt ended up with taking yourself to hospital in pain?

You will not even TRY 2 simple therapeutic interventions you have been advised to try

Can I ask mate - what is the purpose of this thread? What do you want?
 
ageingpartyfiend said:
You are a nurse and don't know how to suicide? amazing

You've just said that bereavement can cause devaststating effects on people, and yet you love your kids so much that's what you're gonna do to them x 1000 due to suicide being the worst possible bereavement

You are gonna try again by merely taking an extra 100mg valium, when the last attempt ended up with taking yourself to hospital in pain?

You will not even TRY 2 simple therapeutic interventions you have been advised to try

Can I ask mate - what is the purpose of this thread? What do you want?
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I know how, just not how.....without pain. We aren't taught that at uni FFS. I'm asking if anyone knows how much of my prescription meds I need to end me mixed with booze. That's the purpose
 
i had an enormous addiction to benzos. there is so much i would like to say. but i feel it has nothing to do with harm reduction. seriously every comment i can think of can be taken in the wrong way.

i really hope you find a way out of these feelings your having. you did mention you stopped taking your benzos to stock pile them. you do realize that stopping cold turkey can really ramp up these kind of feelings ?
 
benladdie3000 said:
I know how, just not how.....without pain. We aren't taught that at uni FFS. I'm asking if anyone knows how much of my prescription meds I need to end me mixed with booze. That's the purpose
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well nobody is going to tell you how to end your life here my friend

but, the way you're going, you are more than likely to end up completely fucked up but still alive and therefore in a worse state than you are now

I am out of this thread now - parting advice is give yourself another 6 months minimum and check out the info I gave you previously via PM again and have a go at those

All the best, much love
 
dabman said:
i had an enormous addiction to benzos. there is so much i would like to say. but i feel it has nothing to do with harm reduction. seriously every comment i can think of can be taken in the wrong way.

i really hope you find a way out of these feelings your having. you did mention you stopped taking your benzos to stock pile them. you do realize that stopping cold turkey can really ramp up these kind of feelings ?
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Yes , but I never took them as prescribed anyway, I found that 15mg a day did nothing
 
ageingpartyfiend said:
well nobody is going to tell you how to end your life here my friend

but, the way you're going, you are more than likely to end up completely fucked up but still alive and therefore in a worse state than you are now

I am out of this thread now - parting advice is give yourself another 6 months minimum and check out the info I gave you previously via PM again and have a go at those

All the best, much love
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I appreciate your help but there's no way of me sourcing the stuff you suggested
 
SpiralusSancti said:
You can you just don't want. I have no way to get drugs yet in situation like yours I would manage. There's plenty of public events were people take such stuff. Ofc I'm not advising that, just saying. I advise you try to apply at closest place offering K therapy. Also DXM is legal at most places.
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No, I can't get them
 
benladdie3000 said:
Hi guys, so I have 500mg of diazepam and I drink alcohol most weekends. I'm tempted to relapse and take my diazepam and then hit the town like usual but I'm worried about potential harm. IV never taken as much as 500ng before and iv never mixed it with alcohol but could this potentially be fatal for a 95kg 32 year old guy???
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I'll just repeat the best advice that has already been given here... mixing benzos with alcohol? DON'T.
 
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