Pretty self explanatory. Trouble with resisting the trip, not giving up control completely, not letting go. Anxiousness and what not ensues. End up not enjoying the drug. I'm young, still learning and i'm not afraid to admit that. There are things i haven't learned (attitude wise) because i've never really had a trip setter. I suppose you could say i need help developing my mind set. Don't be afraid to give me spiritual information :3.
So what? There are places in my mind I wish I had never seen.
Your trouble is that you think you know a place, before you get to it. The first trouble is, you will never actually be anywhere if you think about where you are going. The second trouble is, if you think about where you are going then you are already there. The third trouble is, you do not.
What you need to do is realize that all dreams are a reality, basically. There is no future or past. Energy is constant. The tiger you are chasing is in front of you. You are all there is to experience. There is no way to cheat or cheapen and time does not tarnish.
I show you many veils with nothing beneath them, but you are the one wearing the mask.
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On a personal level, you need to think a lot more about your decisions and realize that many other people have been where you are. They all know. The biggest trouble is that you have no idea what you are going to find. The rest is... stop reading this and imagine what comes next.
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I have no idea what you imagined would be here but that is your goal. The time you waited to read this is your time. You have my assurance these two things are not worth trading in for any amount of perported knowledge about the self. The self is only around because it slips nicley between the cracks. It is knowledge in a very limited sense. It is akin to steering a boat while out in the water. Compare that with the knowledge that others share, like how to build a boat, and then you see that knowing this "everything" is just a tiny bit more than knowing nothing at all. Big secret. Each person represents an exponential amount of things you could never realize, no matter how long you stand in the river.
There are many different stories that fill your whole view and many different ways of telling each one.
I can offer spiritual guidance. There are at least 103 elements. The embryo is the median size of everything in the universe. There are many things found in higher and lower dimensions, but both of these you can access by mathematics. The truth is everywhere you are not, and once you are comfortable with that, which seems greater, what comes to you or what you chase?
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There was a game me and my brothers were fond of playing, the older angels would hold the young ones down and not allow them to get back up until they stopped trying. They still enjoy playing it.