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ben2990

ben2990

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First few times i tried cocaine i didn't like it particularly. I stoped for a long time then tried it again and liked it a bit more.

I used it on the weekend for like 2 weeks. and then. i used on the weekends and some weekdays during the two weeks that followed.

I have decided to stop and see how i feel in a little wile. I feel like i want to do some, but i know it's wrong and i feel like I'm feeding the addition. I can tell I'm certainly addicted a LITTLE (and i mean it a little) I have never had an addictive personality. I'm not extremely stupid about it. i try to do everything i can to increase harm reduction.

If i do more, is the addiction going to get increasingly worse? Also had bad can it get? I feel like i can control my self enough that it wont get too extreme.

(p.s. I have never been addicted to any in my life other than gambling.)
 
youre not addicted.ive been using amphetamine at least weekly since october, and i am having no trouble going without now.
 
if you are really worrying about it this much, then I think you should just take a break from it for a couple of months (if you have that will power)

I always thought I didn't have an addictive personality, I was just a guy that respectfully smoked pot every day and loved to drink, but with I knew I could put it down. However, when I started using dope and I.V cocaine, things got really out of hand, and the last four years of my life have been centered around my drug usage (rehabs, dropping out of school, overdoses etc..)
 
LSDMDMA&8348722 said:
youre not addicted.ive been using amphetamine at least weekly since october, and i am having no trouble going without now.
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So?
Just because you're not addicted to amphetamine doesn't mean he's not mentally addicted to coke.
OP, if you're afraid of getting addicted then stop now. Especially stop weekday use, if you're afraid of getting addicted, and if you can't stop that then stop altogether.

oh and lsdmdma*****, amphetamines are better but less mentally addicting than coke, IMO.
 
Yeah dude bail. Even if you don't have an addictive personality, I think sometimes you can rewire your psyche. So just don't risk. If you do need to use, use as little as possible.
I stopped taking E because I knew I was going to be addicted. It took me a few weeks before I could enjoy myself properly whilst drinking, but it was a lot better than just not being able to enjoy myself.
 
The thing about coke is that the more you do it, the more you crave it.

I believe it has to do with its effect on dopamine. When I was in psych so many years ago, they taught us that the brain of heavy cocaine users, after many years, became unable to produce dopamine (the chemical in your brain that gives you a sense of reward/accomplishment) without cocaine, so that nothing they do in life would bring them any satisfaction except their fix.

Obviously this happens gradually, but if you can feel it starting to take its hold, it's obviously only going to get worse. Every time you do it, you're conditioning your brain a little bit more that dopamine is associated with cocaine.

You want to get out as early as you can - if you feel like it might be a little hard to stop now, it will be much much harder later.
 
ben2990 said:
First few times i tried cocaine i didn't like it particularly. I stoped for a long time then tried it again and liked it a bit more.

I used it on the weekend for like 2 weeks. and then. i used on the weekends and some weekdays during the two weeks that followed.

I have decided to stop and see how i feel in a little wile. I feel like i want to do some, but i know it's wrong and i feel like I'm feeding the addition. I can tell I'm certainly addicted a LITTLE (and i mean it a little) I have never had an addictive personality. I'm not extremely stupid about it. i try to do everything i can to increase harm reduction.

If i do more, is the addiction going to get increasingly worse? Also had bad can it get? I feel like i can control my self enough that it wont get too extreme.

(p.s. I have never been addicted to any in my life other than gambling.)
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ok so you have an addictive personality. stop now before you ruin your life.
 
onmyway said:
ok so you have an addictive personality. stop now before you ruin your life.
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Naw i really dont, i have IV'd H enough times and im not addicted, i been on tons of pain kilelrs without geting addicted
 
what's up with your posts? seriously. i think you know what's up... if you didn't like coke at first why would you do it again? and if you started to like it more and more, wouldn't that make you a little suspicious?
 
many of us understand what you are going through. although i have never had trouble with stimulants, i have had troubles with drinking. i know exactly what it is like to know that its a bad idea to do something, but do it anyway. that is one if the main definers of addiction.
 
As soon as you start breaking your own rules you are an addict, IMO. When you say "I will only use on the weekends" and then you start using on weekdays, that's a sign of addiction. It doesn't have to be physical dependence, it can be mental as well.
 
yeah d00d, just stop. you're lying to yourself if you think you aren't addicted. I played the same head games with opiates. look where it got me...currently in the midst of a 3rd WD, family not too happy....drug lifestyle is fun...life of drugs is not so fun.
 
I dont know what the point of these threads are, in a dilaudid thread you recently made you said you only used opiates a few times and had no tolerance. Here you say you have IV'd heroin enough times without getting addicted. In another thread you say you were on suboxone for opiate addiction. Now youre asking how bad it is using cocaine. In another thread you asked for help in quitting cocaine. You have also said you did cocaine for a week straight at one point. You have started numerous pointless threads.

Are you just really bored?
 
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Addiction creeps up on most people; I was practically un-aware I had a problem until I was sinking OC80's daily - get out now and save your future :)
 
Nikolai said:
I dont know what the point of these threads are, in a dilaudid thread you recently made you said you only used opiates a few times and had no tolerance. Here you say you have IV'd heroin enough times without getting addicted. In another thread you say you were on suboxone for opiate addiction. Now youre asking how bad it is using cocaine. In another thread you asked for help in quitting cocaine. You have also said you did cocaine for a week straight at one point. You have started numerous pointless threads.

Are you just really bored?
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He's trollin', stop wastin' your time on his threads/feeding the troll :\
 
just a side note

if your habit is bad enough that you are saying "i'm not an addict" or "i don't have a problem," that's usually a pretty good sign that there is a problem. i wish people would stop lying to themselves! personally, it bugs the crap out of me when i hear those things.

/end rant
 
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