I've been doing opiates for about a year and a half now. have tried almost every opiate, but have only been shooting them for about 6 months everyday. I use oxy bcuz that is all that is available. I live in south FL so it's very easy to find.
now here's my problem, I'm not like most people in the sense of where I take money out of the bank and go pay for drugs. I pick up a few blues and sell them to friends so I get mine for free and/or make a little money. But it's mainly just to maintain my habit. now recently business has been real good and I've gotten myself to the point now where I haven't even felt the full withdrawal pain in like 5 months...everyday I wake up with the chills and immediately do a shot. I've also been shooting about an average of 10-15 a day, one 30mg dose at a time sometimes 60mg.
so now I ask, how fucked am I really? after 6 hours from my last dose I start going into withdrawal, it's almost more like my brain is completely reliant on opiates and even 4 or 5 hours I feel w/d bcuz iv oxy is so shortlived. now given the fact that I haven't even gone longer than 10 hours without a dose is pretty hard to believe but it's true. I don't even get high anymore and I have a script for suboxone and want to stop but what scares me is if I feel like hell at 6 hours, how am I supposed to wait 18-24 hours to take this shit? and I almost feel like the suboxone won't even do anything bcuz of my massive tolerance.
so please any input is greatly appreciated. Im in college and used to play sports all the time and go out to the bars but I just don't do that stuff anymore. I end up sitting around all day shooting blues. I need help but just can't bring myself to do a last dose at 6 pm and wake up the next day hopefully around 8 in full w/d and then take the suboxone.
any related success/failure stories would be great, and thanks for taking your time to help me out.