disillusioned
Was in the ER last night and their ability to treat my condition was much worse than I expected. Luckily I went as a precaution so I'm fine, if I was actually having an attack bad enough to be life-threatening I dunno what would have happened.
^Try not to fixate on it omen.. try and accept the fact that you going to be uncomfortable for a bit, but that you will make it through in a few weeks, and in a few months you will feal great and no longer be a slave to the substance