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CoastTwoCoast said:
Wow. That sounds like my old relationship. It was so toxic that one night things came to a head and the relationship exploded. I knew it was over and I didn't look back. As a BPD it is hard to let go, but trust me, you need to. Run.
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Exactly what I needed to hear. Even though you don't know the whole story, it's just obvious to me. I have a fear of abandonment. And the narcissist doesn't want to see me go because of course she is best for me. Also when you said run, I laughed out loud for some reason. It's still tough...
 
ShroomySatori said:
Exactly what I needed to hear. Even though you don't know the whole story, it's just obvious to me. I have a fear of abandonment. And the narcissist doesn't want to see me go because of course she is best for me. Also when you said run, I laughed out loud for some reason. It's still tough...
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I wish I had left the relationship sooner before it completely blew up and all the love was gone, but I was still clinging. It's not worth it.
 
^tweetybird was one of my favorite cartoons growing up in the 50's.=D My sister and I used to imitate Tweety's voice when we wanted to irritate the hell out of my mom. (I tot I ta a puddy tat. I did!I did!)=D
 
Cold.

Detoxing in the winter is never fun. Thank goodness im almost over the hump (I think)

Stuck in the gold old cannibus country WA State, looking outside I understand why our suicide rate is through the roof.
 
swilow said:
Why's that?

Me: scattered. But good :)
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Sad because I think I'm bipolar since I'm suffering excruciating debilitating depression that forces me to sleep until my body starts jumping and hurting in bed. Scared because I suffer from mild hppd and see static often. Also worried that I'm bipolar since I lost my mind for the 3rd time. I'm only 26 and have been sober from weed,nicotine for 3 weeks now. I don't want to be on meds and I am sick of being depressed. This all stems back to my 3 day ecstasy binge in the Vegas heat 6 years ago.
 
Have you been diagnosed with bipolar? If so, there's increasingly good medical treatments for that. If not diagnosed, try and avoid self diagnosis.

You will probably find your mood stabilising the longer you are sober. Keep at it, that's a good thing. I can't go sober more than a week, I'm jealous of your three :)

If you need to vent, I'm here, feel free to pm or whatever.
 
Yes I have been diagnosed with bipolar. So unfortunate. I have been smoking weed for 9 years so I never really could tell if there was something off with me since I was always so high off of medical weed. I've had multiple manic and hypomanic symptoms looking back but that could be anybody in their early 20s. It's the full blown mania that I experienced not long ago while I was self medicating heavily on weed that I believe placed me in this depressive state today. I hope time will heal and once my brain chemicals balance I will feel better. I do it want to take medications as I see them as addictive and harmful to the body. I hope and pray each day that I can be strong and live sober without meds.
 
Hey man you could share these thoughts with a doctor. Tell him that you want to fix the chemical imbalalance in the brain if realy that's the problem but not at any cost. Tell him you don't wanna get addicted to something and you do care about body effects of the meds you take and maybe there would be something for you. But even if meds ain't the solution, just taling with a psychologist whould help.
 
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