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^ same here

not sure if its related but i havent felt great since trump was elected.
 
Trump's election made many people angry and depressed. It's disheartening and also proves the majority of the country are dumb as fuck for voting for him. I want off this planet. Jesus needs to come soon. This is a bunch of bullshit.

Oh and I'm bored. It's like I should be living another life. This planet has nothing to offer anymore.
 
I'm feeling sick as fuck again. I realize why. I took 20mg IR at noon instead of the usual 10mg ER and 10mg IR. Paying the price for that extra bit of relief I had earlier, but that's life. I only slept 1 hour last night so I really needed it. Had a semi-okay 2 hour nap in the early afternoon. But I'm flopping around like a fish out of water right now : (

Less than an hour to go until I can take my maintenance dose.
 
I woke up kind of early & was really bored so here's what I came up with..

"Happy

Today has been a good day, and that makes you happy! You either woke up in a good mood, got good news, or you're just a generally positive person. Good for you!"

Guess that's good considering I answered I'd like to scream at the top of my lungs - sounds fulfilling you know? Some days you want to and don't get to.

-dp
 
^I'm sorry bomber. Have to admit that I am also (election related in my case). Trying my best.

me: hopeful (despite the above)
 
^What's the deal with back pain in this forum. Seems most opiate users here started opiates to deal with back pain.
 
Yeah, my spine is very messed up. I couldn't even walk for two years before I started using (it would be rough even to get up to use the washroom, I couldn't even cook for myself), and got caught right up in it because it made the pain evaporate and I felt pretty much like my old self, with some physical restrictions. Eventually, it just doesn't really work for pain anymore. Fuck, I have no idea how I'm going to deal with this without them.

And the doctors have the best shit. They also don't typically care about investigating pain - they would rather quickly prescribe drugs for it. A constant, cheap or free supply makes it really easy to get addicted.
 
Good. Hit the gym for the first time in awhile, and went out for Mexican food earlier. Been off speed and benzos/Ghb for a week or so and it feels good
 
^That's great. I've also gotten myself back to the gym and it feels so good. I just go to swim but I should add some weight training.
 
I think I figured out why I've been losing my shit lately. There is a full 'supermoon' in the constellation Taurus - my star sign - tomorrow night.

I can sense the full moon normally, without checking the weather or sky. I always lose my shit at the full moon. I could sense it strong this time. There are so many changes going on it's just ridiculous. Wow. I am a science guy but this astrology stuff blows my mind time after time.
 
Unbearable cravings and withdrawal symptoms on Day 11. Feeling a relapse coming on. I swear it's that fucking supermoon in Taurus. Can't wait for that shit to GTFO of my star sign. Guess I sound a little nuts but every single full moon I just go ballistic. I was peeing yesterday and sensed it and was like.. yep... full moon again. Then my friend sent me the news article about the supermoon. Just not in Taurus and not a supermoon. Please. Leave me alone today universe with your fucked up gravitational influence or quantum entanglement bs.

I'm not making this up I'm a physicist fuck. Every fucking full moon I lose my shit completely. I just noticed a synchronicity too. It's day 11. '

1-1. Starting over. Day 1. Fuck. I haven't relapsed yet and I don't think I will but I feel chaos coming. Downright chaos. I can't wait until this shit gets the fuck out. Every fuckin time I swear I just go ballistic. Even my friends notice and joke like dude it's the full moon again you f-ing werewolf.
 
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I refuse to look. I would probably see an evil eye. I can just sense it. I seem to have made it through the cravings, at least for now. Yeah.... about 6 hours of straight cravings although I tried to distract myself, it was really tough. Never knew cravings like these even existed. I'm really just getting started in my recovery.
 
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