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How are you in one word vs. Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

Confused

My lawyer quit the firm, so I have some new guy who doesn't know my case show up.
Was never told till today. If anything I think he hurt my case plus didn't have half the files he should have.
And to top it all off, 3/4 of the questions were about a drug test I came up for cannabis on like 10 years ago.
Barely anything had to do with my actual physical/mental health problems.
On bright side, it's open for 7 days to get my doc's newer paperwork as he never sent it.
So my mom got to stress to my doc's office how much it would fuck us both if he didn't back us up.
It should support my case, judge seemed hard to read but perhaps amiable.

But either way the vocational expert said "with his current limitations" there are 0 jobs that he could perform.
Thinking that might be a clincher. God I'm hoping. Won't know for at least 4-5 weeks.
But for those that been following my saga, keep the good vibes coming. :)
 
Sick

Think I picked up a bug at Disability Hearing or something.
Might be stress or medication issues but feels different.
Seeing as I've been home bound essentially for years, it's likely exposure to that many people
&/or a room that has hundreds of people pass through it daily may have exposed me to something.
And with being home bound I'm guessing I pick up things pretty easy at this point. :(
 
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There isn't really a word to describe how I am feeling at the moment because I feel every emotion all at once. I finally found a detox center in Louisville that is going to help me! I'm so excited and terrified at the same time. I'm risking a lot doing this, and leaving a lot of responsibilities behind, but I have to take care of myself before I can do anything else. BRAVE. I am on my way right now.
 
^ GL CG. Takes a lot of courage to do what your doing.
Wish you the best of luck & hope that things work out for you in the end.

As for myself.

Hopeless.

Yet again sadly enough, just can't handle the pain & withdrawals.
When in my case I actually need my medications & due to doctors at the hospital;
being fucktarded I'm now on a taper that I don't fucking need.

Lost all my IR & my other meds & tapering my benzos as well.
At way to fast a rate I might add.
Least I still have my ER for taper, but fuck it doesn't work really.
Can never get to a high enough blood level to not be sick as shit. :(
Luckily my doctor referred me to different PM as turns out he's a GP;
& has been sticking his neck out this whole time.

Feel kinda bad for him but pissed at the same time.
Hopefully tuesday when I see the psych referral can fix benzo thing;
if not there's always the interwebs as a hold over.
Same thing with the pain meds, but damn I'm so fucking broke.

That & need to setup a bitcoin wallet, which I can't really do on this comp;
don't really wanna do on web & am to sick to focus enough to setup my phone.
As I wanna make sure to unlock/root etc. before I activate it even if it's kinda old.
Not horrible for being old though, Droid DNA so decent specs.
My life has just been so fucked that I never activated it.
Was top of the line when I got it, if that says how fucked my life's been.
Time wise anyways. Just used a family members old not-smart phone. :\

But I digress this is supposed to be one word & my saga is in other threads already.
So I'll just leave off here & again wish you the best CG, your doing as you said;
a very brave thing. I wish you the best & hope for your success.
 
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