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How Are You in One Word Vs Happiness; Only Real When Shared =D

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whatever I got just got way worse when I was sleeping. I'm not even well enough to go to my homegroup tonight :/
 
Relieved, encouraged by the family dynamic that occurred between my brother, sister, mom and dad tonight during the holiday. White Christmas, too :)
Although I work tomorrow at 6am. But I am happy.

~ Vaya
 
{Worried}

The 4 rats I am looking after for a friend are sick, one died the first night they were here (which the owner told me he was worried might happen) and now all the others are getting slowly worse. We don't have any vets open on Christmas Day :(
 
Vaya said:
Relieved, encouraged by the family dynamic that occurred between my brother, sister, mom and dad tonight during the holiday. White Christmas, too :)
Although I work tomorrow at 6am. But I am happy.

~ Vaya
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I am so happy for you. I'm glad that your family is coming together.<3<3

@Re-distributed--emergency vet? I hope they make it.
 
I miss my mom, this is my 4th christmas without her now. I wish I had treated her better when she was around, she knew I loved her but I should have been so much better to her. I don't beat myself up about it anymore, but there is nothing I wouldn't give for one more day with her.

I used to get angry and sad thinking about not having her anymore, but now I generally only get nostalgic.

<3
 
nervousone said:
I miss my mom, this is my 4th christmas without her now. I wish I had treated her better when she was around, she knew I loved her but I should have been so much better to her. I don't beat myself up about it anymore, but there is nothing I wouldn't give for one more day with her.

I used to get angry and sad thinking about not having her anymore, but now I generally only get nostalgic.

<3
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I'm so sorry for your loss.

Holidays in general make me feel very nostalgic especially when I think of those who we've lost to death. My thoughts are with you, dear <3
 
I'm so sorry for your loss too. :( <3 My heart goes to you.

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I feel pretty good considering this is my first xmas alone.. And to be honest it's been fucking good so far.. walking around in my pants with the heating on as nobody else is here with music on full blast, seeing friends and can't wait to play black ops 2 later! :P

Slightly concerned though..
Also mood swings are crazy, I'm just trying to stay positive... but looked in the mirror and was surprised to see so many bruises on my head :/ I don't remember getting them.. but apparently at a friends he found me hitting myself and then he punched me a few times?? It was just to release pain I'm sure.. but my memory is so so so bad at the moment. Literally I have no STM!! Have to write absoultely everything down, or within 45 seconds I've forgotten it.. Could this by just a mild concussion? Should I be worried? I must add I am recovering from an OD and going through benzo withdrawals, woke up physically terrible but managed to self medicate/ numb most of it...

Sorry I'm not sure where I should post this? Tempted to phone NHS direct but I know as I'm alone they will just send paramedics over, and I really can't deal with it again..
 
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^ it does sound like a concussion to me. When I was in my car accident over a year ago those were my exact symptoms after the concussion. I strongly urge you to seek medical help. Anything that had to do with the brain is a high risk because of possible internal bleeding. <3
 
Go and seek some medical assistance if you have not already done so, Kace.
We can offer you our opinions & words of advice, but we cannot diagnose you based on said symptoms.
Things like this need to be examined properly by trained medical staff.
Hope you feel better soon and get your memory back.

I'm feeling anxious.
Got to see the other half of my family today.
 
pessimistic..... about the future..... so worried about how to support this baby.... feeling very alone.... very dissapointed with the bf/baby's father.... i dont know if we will stay together.... our relationship is up and down....it would help alot if he stopped drinking so much
i dont know how to do this with or without him though
:(
and i dont want to drive 35 hours across the country (while 25 weeks pregnant) to live in my parents basement in an isolated area where i dont really have any friends
just feelin down
 
tackyspiral said:
pessimistic..... about the future..... so worried about how to support this baby.... feeling very alone.... very dissapointed with the bf/baby's father.... i dont know if we will stay together.... our relationship is up and down....it would help alot if he stopped drinking so much
i dont know how to do this with or without him though
:(
and i dont want to drive 35 hours across the country (while 25 weeks pregnant) to live in my parents basement in an isolated area where i dont really have any friends
just feelin down
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stay strong <3 your going through a lot. I got your back girl.

tired
being sick is draining. I'm exhausted but not enough to sleep. reminds me of dopesickness...
 
Serotonin101 said:
stay strong <3 your going through a lot. I got your back girl.

tired
being sick is draining. I'm exhausted but not enough to sleep. reminds me of dopesickness...
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The last time I was sick, I had strep throat, and I cannot convey how horrible this was. I couldn't eat for at least 3 days in a row because of how painful it was to swallow, I couldn't even drink water as I should have been due to that. When it came time to take the antibiotics, it was so hard to swallow the capsules, but I had to in order to get better (they actually could have given me an IM form but I didn't want to have to IM an antibiotic on a regular basis for weeks).

It took me over an entire week to recover so I could go back to work, and it sucked because I wanted to work that entire time. :(

So I'm here if you want to talk!

My word: thankful
 
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