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relieved.

everything is starting to fall into place in my life so nicely.
 
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Maya said:
TD we all have bad days, I too have bad days, but are we gonna let these bad days decide what we want to do or how we are going to act? Positivity is the key to everything as pain and hsrdships are part of life. Please do not drop out of college stay strong we are here to support you.
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You are so right. It was more than one bad day, 3 days that were quite bad and getting worse, but still just 3 days. Today was a better day than any of those. Not good, but not very bad and okay ATM.

I do have two problems related to college right now. 1. There is an at home exam that I can't print out worth 15% of my grade in psychological statistics. I haven't tried in the past 5 hours or so but tried a number of times in the 6-8 hours before that. I hope it is the college network because if I can't print it out due to a problem on their end, I think they'll have to extend the time limit. I'm sure it is my printer though. No error message at all, the paper goes through, but no ink. I may be able to get to my brother's house around 6 to print it and do the test. 2. Stupid program I need to do homework for my Geospatial mapping class won't install on my computer because of the damn liscense manager and I haven't gotten it to work on the other computer because I can't get Microsoft.net Framework 3.5 sp1 to install on it and I am going to lose 10 points if I don't finish that by start of class and aleady have the previous 2 assignments late because of that damn software. Since those are the only classes I took, I may end up dropping anyway if I can't get something worked out because they are very easy classes and anything less than an A is unacceptable to me.

I think I can get something worked out in time for the Psych Stats. Maybe if I can't for the other one, I can get an extension since I have been unable to use the software. I don't know.
I sure as hell won't drop because I had a few bad days. When I made the post, I was sure I was headed into a long depression. I know a lot of people around here care about me whether or not you should, seeing what kind of asshole I have been at times, like when everyone thought I was dead<I had no way to let anyone know otherwise till out of the institution> (I care about a lot of Bluelighters too - even if I haven't spoken personally, I've read posts and even if it is a complete stranger, it is still nice/feels good to help)

If I can't work things out, then I might drop. It depends on whether or not it is too late to drop and not pay tuition. Otherwise, I'll continue and just retake the classes even though I get B's or C's. Like I said, I think things will work out. I also do not think I am going to end up in a bad state of depression. It may have been dosing the supplements earlier and twice instead of once that made the difference, I don't know. There seems to be a low level of depression. I may see if I can get Wellbutrin for that. I am told it is about the only antidepressant I can take with Bipolar Disorder and it worked well before but caused a manic episode then stopped working (apparently a mixed episode). That was without a mood stabilizer and it must be used with a mood stabilizer to avoid problems.

Just like to say thanks for the advice and words of encouragement.
 
Unstable. In a few hours I can go from feeling confident like superman to feeling low depressed and desperate.
 
disciplined.

I have to be more disciplined about sleep schedules etc. I need to be healthier.
 
shocked

My favorite cousin is getting married to a guy who is in our country illegally so he can get citizenship. He is 10 years older than she is, works illegally as a dishwasher, and has a kid with another American woman.

My cousin is 23, beautiful, college graduate, a true sweetheart. I'm not opposed to marriage for citizenship purposes. I AM opposed to the fact that he is a control freak who told he would leave her if she applied to law school, which is her lifelong dream. She moved to Texas to be with him after knowing him a few weeks. He wants her to be a stay at home mother! WHAT THE FUCK.

My family on that side are extremely conservative, they are going to go nuclear. Many, though not her parents thankfully, are also extremely racist and xenophobic. I love and support her whatever she decides to do, so looks like Bridesmaid Mariposa is going to have to suck up her feelings, something I am not great at doing. At least my dress is gorgeous.
 
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