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How are you in One Word vs. A Smile is a Curve That Sets Everything Straight

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^^ true, The 'somewhat' friends I've made have been mostly through her(although I don't ever talk to them outside AA meetings or when I see them with her), but now that she's at school and I only see her once a weekish that'll depend on if I decide to move to Santa Cruz, which is a possibility.

I think part of the reason I felt such a connection to her when we met is that she's the first person I've met since getting clean that really gets me. I'm kind of weird and introverted, and see my self as boring to most people since I don't generally talk much in social situations, but with her it was totally different. We talked for 14 hours strait the day we met, strait through the night till we watched the sunrise. It was pretty awesome. I generally can't hold a conversation with people for more than 5 minutes because that's how little i relate lol.
 
OUCH stupid Keurig, I was rinsing out the grounds right after making coffee and they were super hot and washed out onto my fingers and now my fingers are burned. Now i"m going to have to carry around an icepack for half the day :|
 
^^ Awww I'm sorry!

Jesus.. You're UP making coffee, yet here I am STILL awake. Trying to decide if it's worth trying to sleep at this point. I tried for an hour just now with no luck.
 
That sucks star! After all these years working in kitchens I'm kinda heat-resistant in my hands.

I'm the same case, completely introverted and feel like I'm boring in social situations because I don't talk much (most of that has to do with the fact that my 'areas of interest' are generally quasi-legal).

Do you run into those 'somewhat' friends when you're by yourself? If so, something I've found useful in the past, is thinking how my more talkative friends interact in that situation and just re-using questions/phrases to kick of conversation, even if it's for 5 mins it gives you a basis for future conversations. Plus the confidence you feel when you run into said friend again with your SO and can say you had a convo with them all by yourself.
 
^^ LMAO, she totally knows me well enough that if I said that exact thing, "had a convo with them all by myself" She'd be hella proud of me.

And yeah, I mean I see them at AA meetings but it generally does't go past "hey, hows it going?", mundane answer, blah blah, sometimes a couple extra sentences, and thats that. I don't know why but I seriously have a hard time thinking of anything to say with most people. It's not that I have somthing to say and don't because of anxiety, it's that my mind is just blank.

Also I think it has a lot to do with the way I think. A lot of my thoughts aren't linguistic, it's more of an emotional/spiritual kind of "knowing" something without needing to think the words, which tends to be difficult to translate into verbal language. I don't know if it has something to do with the massive amounts of psychedelics I took in my using days or if I'm just like that.
 
Thanks everyone for the support on the last page. nsa, I feel apprehensive about starting another thread b/c I feel like I've started one every 6 months or so. I'm gonna let it all hang out over in Octsober, I suppose.

Now, I feel reenvigorated.
 
Haha, yeah I was still up when you were awake making coffee earlier, and now I'm just about to get about of bed as you lay down for a nap.

Fucked sleep schedules huh. 8(
 
ad lib said:
Just a bitchy co worker. But her attitude is going to come to an end real fast ;)

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I have that too lol Ugh! I can't stand her but gots to get a long some how 8)
 
emotionaltiredsore

(I blame PMS. Sometimes I dislike being a woman!)
 
I feel kinda burnt out. From sleep deprivation, not drugs.


I'm going to try and get to bed early tonight, forced myself to make plans for getting out of the house tomorrow. Going to a skatepark with someone who lives at the SLE with me.
 
So much for getting to bed early lmao

My current word is HORNY.


Just got done chatting with my girl, the topics got interesting. :D
 
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