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modelskinny
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Maya
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Sending positive energy to you
Aw thanks gorgeous
mwah!Alright I guess one more day to go for the weekend!
Tryptamine*Dreamer
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Something really bad may have just happened
Extremely worried - Please read
I don't know why so many bad things are happening around me so fast in this past month as I have learned to be happy and I think I may have found my calling in life - one that I truly believe I can make a big impact on.
The younger of the two of my nephews was at school maybe 3 hours ago. He collapsed and had a tonic-clonic seizure - also known as a grand mal seizure. It has never happened before. I have no clue what is wrong with him. I am at home with his brother right now, waiting for news.
I hope he does not die.
It would be nice if I could talk to someone, but I don't know what to say. I don't know what is wrong and nobody here could say anything to help that I can think of.
Maybe you all think I am lying. It does not seem normal for all these things to happen in one household over such a short period. I don't know how many of you know what all has been going on around me or to me lately. I have tried to kill myself 7 times and came very near death some of those. I have nearly died from accidental overdoses. When I was 11 or 12, my dad was angry and yelling while driving the car. My mom told him a train was coming and he did not slow down. I felt the car pass the tracks and it was a fraction of a second before I heard the train go by. It seems impossible that I could still be alive after all of this and I do not expect anyone to believe me but it is all true.
Now my nephew is in the hospital and I don't know what the fuck is wrong. Why is this happening? I just don't get it.
Extremely worried - Please read
I don't know why so many bad things are happening around me so fast in this past month as I have learned to be happy and I think I may have found my calling in life - one that I truly believe I can make a big impact on.
The younger of the two of my nephews was at school maybe 3 hours ago. He collapsed and had a tonic-clonic seizure - also known as a grand mal seizure. It has never happened before. I have no clue what is wrong with him. I am at home with his brother right now, waiting for news.
I hope he does not die.
It would be nice if I could talk to someone, but I don't know what to say. I don't know what is wrong and nobody here could say anything to help that I can think of.
Maybe you all think I am lying. It does not seem normal for all these things to happen in one household over such a short period. I don't know how many of you know what all has been going on around me or to me lately. I have tried to kill myself 7 times and came very near death some of those. I have nearly died from accidental overdoses. When I was 11 or 12, my dad was angry and yelling while driving the car. My mom told him a train was coming and he did not slow down. I felt the car pass the tracks and it was a fraction of a second before I heard the train go by. It seems impossible that I could still be alive after all of this and I do not expect anyone to believe me but it is all true.
Now my nephew is in the hospital and I don't know what the fuck is wrong. Why is this happening? I just don't get it.
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Tryptamine*Dreamer
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Something else just came up with another family member. Now I feel like I am going insane and spreading sickness across the world.
I am having suicidal thoughts. I am going to put myself into oblivion because I have got to escape from this Hell that is closing in around me once again.
I am having suicidal thoughts. I am going to put myself into oblivion because I have got to escape from this Hell that is closing in around me once again.
spork
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ad lib
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Vaya
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energized, for sure!! 
It's great!!
It's great!!
modelskinny
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loved.
badfish45
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Relaxed. A bit bored and lonely. I would like a girl to spend time with even if its not serious, but other than that my life is going great.
Its friday.
Im r e l a x e d
Its friday.
Im r e l a x e d
Tryptamine*Dreamer
Ex-Bluelighter
I don't know what I am doing.
I keep making google+ circles and connecting them together. I put Blulight in circles. I put Animals Asia in circles. I put the wildlife biology professors at my university in my circles and made it so they will see Animals Asia. I put musicians in my circles and the circles keep linking up. I was allowed to use google analytics. Then maybe 2 hours later, google+ changed rules but I was in good standing. Now google analytics might be paying me for something. I connected it to yahoo. Soon I needed to get a code for something. I had to get it by phone. Washington DC called me and gave the code and told me what to do with it. I lost the code.
I fear that I may have screwed a lot of things up. Somebody might find out what I have been doing. I might go to prison for this.
I think I am going to Hell for this one. I have no idea what I was doing in the first place. It was completely abstract thought, no words. Just emotion and undefinable thoughts. I felt like I was sending out love or something. Now somebody might find out who started the shitstorm of circles and some people here might get tangled up in the matrix. If the numbers I look at mean what I think, I may have got as many as 10,000 people to see some videos of music and shit. I don't want to get exposed. I don't want the government coming after me. It may be out of my control now. Maybe I can cover up the evidence.
I think I am having a manic episode. I have not slept in days but I happy in an unnatural way.
I thought I went blind earlier. I was in the room with Lucky and I turned off the lights. He was laying on my chest and I felt really good. I forgot the light was off. I was not scared. I was still happy. I could feel Lucky and I was still happy. I think he was happy too.
I keep making google+ circles and connecting them together. I put Blulight in circles. I put Animals Asia in circles. I put the wildlife biology professors at my university in my circles and made it so they will see Animals Asia. I put musicians in my circles and the circles keep linking up. I was allowed to use google analytics. Then maybe 2 hours later, google+ changed rules but I was in good standing. Now google analytics might be paying me for something. I connected it to yahoo. Soon I needed to get a code for something. I had to get it by phone. Washington DC called me and gave the code and told me what to do with it. I lost the code.
I fear that I may have screwed a lot of things up. Somebody might find out what I have been doing. I might go to prison for this.
I think I am going to Hell for this one. I have no idea what I was doing in the first place. It was completely abstract thought, no words. Just emotion and undefinable thoughts. I felt like I was sending out love or something. Now somebody might find out who started the shitstorm of circles and some people here might get tangled up in the matrix. If the numbers I look at mean what I think, I may have got as many as 10,000 people to see some videos of music and shit. I don't want to get exposed. I don't want the government coming after me. It may be out of my control now. Maybe I can cover up the evidence.
I think I am having a manic episode. I have not slept in days but I happy in an unnatural way.
I thought I went blind earlier. I was in the room with Lucky and I turned off the lights. He was laying on my chest and I felt really good. I forgot the light was off. I was not scared. I was still happy. I could feel Lucky and I was still happy. I think he was happy too.
Black Rabbit of Inle
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