Happy, motivated
Don't know what the fuck is going on in that brain of mine. It is not functioning the way it normally does and I don't know if I will ever be normal again.
Maybe that is not a bad thing. On the other hand, I have bipolar disorder so maybe I am having a manic episode and I just don't know it.
I wish I knew what the fuck is happening to me. Maybe my brain is damaged. This does not seem normal at all.
What the fuck am I supposed to do now?
I normally have lots of thoughts going through my head really fast but they are all about death, pain, torture, hell, evil, and whatever fucked up shit my mind can produce or find on the web.
There is something fucked up going on. I'm trying to do something about it but I am not sure where to start. That is not relevant to whatever has fucked up my head this time though.
I think that think that I can still think and comprehend things as well as ever but maybe I am just a delusional looney nut.
Maybe I will find out some day. Maybe I won't. Maybe it doesn't really matter anyway. I guess I have other shit to do right now, so I'll be back later unless I fall into the sun or crash on the dark side of the moon or something.