Better the last few days really knocked me sideways, I've never fallen that quickly into that much darkness before and to be honest it's scared me more than I'd like to say.
I've been neglecting myself and doing things I know aren't good for me mainly as a means to try and cope with pressure from elsewhere, mainly work.
Why I choose to hurt myself self just when I need to do the opposite is still a mystery to me and I'm not sure who to turn to for the answers, but for today I feel much better and for that I am truly thankful to the world