How Are You In One Word ver. Smile Because It Happened

[aussie101]

Totally fucking relaxed man

 

[spork]

Thank you so much, herby. I know you really get it and your words are reassuring and comforting. I wish I could give you a huuuuuuge hug right now. ((()))

 

[Pagey]

me: very deeply sad . hard night. I was looking for a picture of Caleb to post in a thread here and I came across this one where is about 4 or 5 years old and he has this beautiful little I've-got-a-secret grin on his face and he is looking directly into the camera (which he always did) and I just got lost in his eyes. I found myself sobbing and repeating, " You were perfect. You are perfect." I miss him so much it is indescribable.

That must have been so difficult herby, I'm sorry you're such a strong person for managing to transform that sadness into something wonderful here on Bluelight and I know I don't just speak for myself when I say you're an inspiration. Stay strong

 

[stardust.hero]

me: very deeply sad . hard night. I was looking for a picture of Caleb to post in a thread here and I came across this one where is about 4 or 5 years old and he has this beautiful little I've-got-a-secret grin on his face and he is looking directly into the camera (which he always did) and I just got lost in his eyes. I found myself sobbing and repeating, " You were perfect. You are perfect." I miss him so much it is indescribable.

This has not been a spectacular week. I'm not feeling too positive about it.

 

[Timber]

Mellow.

 

[Boupstarnm]

Shitty

I'm sick of being alone. Got no money. Got a bunch of bills coming up. Stuck in this city with no friends. starting over for the 12+ time this decade. Basically been living out of a suit case since i was 19.

I'm sick of it all. I don't have work for the next 2 days so I have plenty of time to sit around and stew in my misery. but I created this mess now I need to figure a way out.

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Anxious

 

[herbavore]

Shitty

I'm sick of being alone. Got no money. Got a bunch of bills coming up. Stuck in this city with no friends. starting over for the 12+ time this decade. Basically been living out of a suit case since i was 19.

I'm sick of it all. I don't have work for the next 2 days so I have plenty of time to sit around and stew in my misery. but I created this mess now I need to figure a way out.

Maybe jump into some of the social threads here and in some of the other forums? Plenty of people do to make it through the loneliness of a weekend or a night. Starting over for the twelfth time in a decade sounds exhausting but really you should look at yourself in the mirror and congratulate the fighter in you--that is pretty amazing. Maybe you could spill it all out in a blog. Whatever you do, tell yourself that you know who the enemies are: shame, loneliness, boredom, negative or fatalistic thinking. Every time one of them sneaks up on you or they all decide to ambush together, you'll be ready, you will have beat them to the punch. Good luck and stay strong.

@Mr Scagnattie: I'm around if you want to send a PM.

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

@Re-distributed--take some time for yourself and take care of yourself. You have been doing such a thorough job here since joining the mod team. Can't do anything about your IRL work situation for you but we can at least try to cover for you here so that you get a break. Don't burn yourself out!

Thanks Herb, I'm still around just not as active right now. For some reason ever since I told work I wasn't going away for 6 months they decided to give me more work Ah well, extra money for travel later in the year.

{Tired}

 

[Pagey]

Torn.
On the one hand I'm incredibly happy because my dad got out of the hospital today and is back home safe and (relatively) sound...on the other hand a friend lost a very good friend of his and I feel horrible for him.
So much death these days.

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Torn.
On the one hand I'm incredibly happy because my dad got out of the hospital today and is back home safe and (relatively) sound...on the other hand a friend lost a very good friend of his and I feel horrible for him.
So much death these days.

Rough. But at least things are better on your own front. That's good to hear about your dad.

 

[Black Rabbit of Inle]

{stunned}

Too many deaths recently. I want to remind everyone to take care of themselves and be careful. Remember that us here in TDS will always be there when and if you need us. Much love to you all.

 

[Stevenski]

Close

I just had the strongest gambling craving I have had in at least 3 years. I got as far as putting on my shoes & managed to stop myself. I am sitting here trying to work out what triggered it but it is still hovering. I hope I can wake up tomorrow & have done nothing to throw away the time I have.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Close

I just had the strongest gambling craving I have had in at least 3 years. I got as far as putting on my shoes & managed to stop myself. I am sitting here trying to work out what triggered it but it is still hovering. I hope I can wake up tomorrow & have done nothing to throw away the time I have.

Feel free to PM me if you need to man.

Congratulations on stopping yourself!

my word: devastated

 

[SkagKush]

I will shout out this whole page! So much love in TDS!

I am thrilled.

Got 100 percent on two exams and a project. Yet I am quite exhausted to... Maybe the fact it's 4:15 has something to do with it.

 

[Timber]

Annoyed. 8am is too early for Saturday class.... Why can't it be like 10am? 11am??

 

[Sepher]

{stunned}

Too many deaths recently. I want to remind everyone to take care of themselves and be careful. Remember that us here in TDS will always be there when and if you need us. Much love to you all.

Just ^this^ exactly. This is an incredibly sad week for Bluelight. Tears have been shed many and often reading their threads here and what their friends have had to say about them.

Be careful people.

 

[ad lib]

happy and excited

 

[Mr.Scagnattie]

Restless

 

[Captain.Heroin]

excited - more so than I have been in years!!