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How Are You in One Word v. Somewhere Over the Rainbow

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disappointed.

I know what I deserve, I know I should be stronger, I'm worried I may be going insane or liking the pain of being hurt- even though I DON'T like being hurt- its just every time I try to be strong, I fall back into the same pattern almost immediately. I suck.
 
<3 ocean <3 :( you are very strong and you don't suck one bit :(. You are a beautiful person and you deserve only the best. <3

I woke up feeling like crap. Typical. I'm going to clean the entire house and see if that helps. That usually does.

Eh.... is my word.
 
paranoid android said:
Heartburn and sort of weirdly depressed. I am so not looking forward to winter :(
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Nonono. Don't be depressed :(

Feeling extremely excited right now, managed to get two tickets to the premiere of the new Led Zeppelin movie that I'm going to with Mr. Crush. We're going to be in the same room as the band and we should be able to meet them <3
 
Sconnie <3 you're a great person dear. I'm so sorry you're feeling that way.

Ocean <3
Stardust <3
Pagey ~ awesome!!

My word: optimistic
 
The word of the day is..."normal". Yes i kno its kinda anti climactic lol but i guess im excited to feel so damn normal. Today is two months without opiates and i still have had no cravings or urges to use. I am still taking nyquil to sleep at night and an occasional benzo on really bad nights when rls is unbearable but not more than once a week maybe twice and only 1 mg. I just wanted to say again how thankful i am for TDS and its members for helping me get to "the other side". My life has improved so much i am the happiest motherfucker i know, my life was so stressful befor, that now when life gives me lemons i squeeze that shit in its eyes cause nothing can be as bad as the life i was leading befor. I hope one day i can contribute to somones recovery the way that you all have in mine. So i will humbly thank all you darksiders once more.
 
*much* better now. I finally finished my application to school for next semester, which is such a huuuuuuge weight off my shoulders. In true spork form, I waited until the very last minute, but it's done now and I'm feeling pretty accomplished. :) Now I just have to sit around and wait to see if I've been accepted or not.

Thanks josh and trip. <3 <3
 
twelve.

today was excellent--tonight..not so much. :|

can't believe my head can still go back there so quickly.
 
ocean said:
disappointed.

I know what I deserve, I know I should be stronger, I'm worried I may be going insane or liking the pain of being hurt- even though I DON'T like being hurt- its just every time I try to be strong, I fall back into the same pattern almost immediately. I suck.
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You do not suck! Your one of the strongest people i know. Not many people could put up with the shit you've been through. You'll be alright i have faith in you <3

Pagey said:
Nonono. Don't be depressed :(

Feeling extremely excited right now, managed to get two tickets to the premiere of the new Led Zeppelin movie that I'm going to with Mr. Crush. We're going to be in the same room as the band and we should be able to meet them <3
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I'm jealous that you got tickets to that. There not showing it in theaters here naturally cause we only get shit movies :p

As for me desolation would be a apt description of how i feel
 
These things happen my friend. Dont let it keep you down. Just get back up, dust yourself on and push forward :).
As for how im doing, relaxed. Had a good workout, got my daily macros and watching family guy :D
 
^thank you and I need to.... I don't think, well I know I cant handle using everyday especially with work and my classes... I would be setting myself up for failure...
 
^ding ding ding. I worked 40hours a week, had 16 credit hours at uni, rotc stuff, a family life (included a clingy obsessive fiance at the time), and her and my dope habits to support. It didnt end too well cuz of course the dope came first, then the fiance, then job (to buy dope), then school and rotc. What do i have left of all that? Well i still go to school lol.
 
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