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How Are You in One Word v. Somewhere Over the Rainbow

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Spork - you are irreplaceable! You're a wonderful person with a lot of friends here in TDS and BL, and while we can't take the place of your longtime friend, we can hand you a cup of cocoa or give you a hug! It is a harsh reality that even longtime friendships cool over time, that's also happened to me, and it's worse than a breakup in a lot of ways. If you need an ear, you know how to reach me. <3

My word: relieved to be in for the day. I spent the night at a friend's because we enjoyed a bit too much of a fine 2006 Pinot Noir. I had breakfast and coffee at his place, made sure I was sober, and got on the road. I know that you Northeast US BLers are getting hammered by rain. We are too. My friend lives about 15 minutes away but it took an hour to get home because the roads were so bad. The finishing touch was hitting a puddle and doing my very first 360 on my exit from the highway. I was a foot away from a concrete barrier when I got control of my car again. My car and I are both unharmed aside from me needing to change the shirt I puked from anxiety on and take a shower. So, yeah, also grateful. As much as I love my tiny 15 year old subcompact, I am thinking it is time to make room in the budget for a newer car that I feel safer driving in bad weather.
 
@phatass--that doesn't sound too enthusiastic. What's up?

@Spork--that feels terrible. I agree with Mariposa--it can feel like a worse rejection than a lover. It is no doubt time and distance and nothing personal about you though. Have you told her how you feel?

@mariposa--yes, if you can, get a new car! That must have been terrifying!

SAD--just gave the remainder of Caleb's stuff to one of his best friends. Tickets to raves and concerts, little boxes of special rocks, his hookah, a few clothes. He was definitely not a material guy. It was so sad but she is such a cool person and I know she will know just how to disseminate it amongst their group of friends. We talked about our dreams about him--we've both only had two. We talked about another ceremony next year on the water. Now the tears just won't stop.:(
 
^ <3 I am sorry that you are struggling. I'm not a material person either, but I do own a handful of things that are very valuable to me (connected to memories). Definitely a quality-over-quantity thing here for people like us. Instead of just being more and more of our collected junk, those really are the meaningful things that define us. I think that it's great that you have distributed these things across a group of people that will care for them and respect them.

cold

It is freezing in my apartment. I should probably change out of my wet work clothes!
 
spork said:
I think my best friend of 15 years has replaced me. I'm hurting quite a bit. :(
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Sorry I didn't see this until now love. :( <3<3

My house is freezing. I wasn't expecting to take Florida winters this hard :(. Is there no place on earth you can escape the winter chill?
 
herbavore said:
SAD--just gave the remainder of Caleb's stuff to one of his best friends. Tickets to raves and concerts, little boxes of special rocks, his hookah, a few clothes. He was definitely not a material guy. It was so sad but she is such a cool person and I know she will know just how to disseminate it amongst their group of friends. We talked about our dreams about him--we've both only had two. We talked about another ceremony next year on the water. Now the tears just won't stop.:(
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That sounds real tough Herb. <3 What made you part with them? Feel a need to share the mementos out a little or more just can't bear to look at them? Sounds like you attach as little to the material as Caleb did, which is pretty much what I've come to expect of you but still. You've kept some things though, right?

n3ophy7e said:
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And hating every fucking goddamn second of this shit! :!

*deep breathes*
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And count . . . 1, 2, 3, 4 . . . . .

You might be hating it right now, but I'm pleased for you! Prolly don't count for a whole lot right now like, but hey. :p

<3

I'm enjoying my day off work and have been somewhat productive, big casserole pot of braising steak been in the oven an hour already for stew and dumplings / yorkie pud puds / meat pie freezer rations later in the month. So good to look over at the clock showing 10:30am when I woke this morning and not going into blind panic cos I'm late for a Monday at work again. Course, we still got tomorrow to consider. Tuesday: the new Monday!
 
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^OH, yes, definitely kept quite a few things, Sepher. We all (my husband, older son and I) kept something we can wear. I have one of his hats and a jacket that I bought for him.When Caleb was little he wasn't nearly the minimalist that he became later in life so I have all the stuffed animals and childhood mementos plus any writing he did of a personal nature. I also have his backpack which is probably the thing I love the most. Hopefully I can take it out into the world for him soon.

@n3o--I think it is good to get angry in this case. Hang tight, sweetie.<3
 
Blubbing like a girl! Just watched War Horse. Soft as putty me. Daft bloody film, completely foreseeable ending telegraphed, oh, right back in the first few minutes, heart strings tugging-by-numbers from Spielberg here but still Sepher cries at the drop of a hat.

*sniffs*

I enjoyed it! LOL

=D
 
aggressive.
its one of those days where it seems everything is not going in my favor. so I'm in that "wage war against the world" mentality and already on the warpath. I might be small in stature but my words cut deeper than any blade, and today I unsheathed that blade and have destroyed many. feelsgoodman to be running on euphoric anger right now >:)
 
Thank you Sepher and herby <3
I still feel like shit the morning but one day at a time...right?


Sepher said:
Blubbing like a girl! Just watched War Horse. Soft as putty me. Daft bloody film, completely foreseeable ending telegraphed, oh, right back in the first few minutes, heart strings tugging-by-numbers from Spielberg here but still Sepher cries at the drop of a hat.

*sniffs*

I enjoyed it! LOL

=D
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I don't think I'm ever going to allow myself to watch that movie!! It would break my heart way too much :D
Glad you enjoyed it mate :)
 
Mixed.

Work is falling apart, and I'm paralyzed between a bunch of different options. Angry, sad, flat, and just generally off. Could someone please give me, like, 150k so that I can be free of this mortgage and just flee? Pretty please?
 
Dave said:
Mixed.

Work is falling apart, and I'm paralyzed between a bunch of different options. Angry, sad, flat, and just generally off. Could someone please give me, like, 150k so that I can be free of this mortgage and just flee? Pretty please?
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Can you lease it out for a year to cover the payment? Then you would be free to go but you wouldn't lose it either.
 
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