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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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I quit drinking coffee for a week because I had bad anxiety and my sleep patterns were all messed up so I thought quitting caffeine might help. I gave in this morning and made a cup.. it is like pure liquid love.. <3
 
canarylove said:
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<3!

well, its funny that such crazy weather can bring a day full of sunshine to me. I think 133 people died in Alabama last night due to the storm systems.
there were at least a dozen if not more.. super cells in the state.
A mile long tornado swept through the entire state, and surprisingly enough, it went into downtown Birmingham.(the big city of the state).

I still haven't herd anything from my dad yet. he lives in "t-town", and they got hit the hardest.. I really hope he's alright.
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^I hope your dad is ok
We're waiting on a hurricane/tornado thing here right now. Pretty strange for Pennsylvania to get hit by this stuff
 
OverDone said:
^I hope your dad is ok
We're waiting on a hurricane/tornado thing here right now. Pretty strange for Pennsylvania to get hit by this stuff
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mannn dont screw around with this bad weather, if it looks serious outside.. grab ur fucking camera and take pictures! lol!! also get into a safe spot.

it's really rare for tornadoes to climb hills and mountains. I thought for some reason that Pennsylvania was really hilly.
i think it might be the same storm system that wrecked the south. if so, lemi kno if u see my buddy's wallet that got blown away lol.

sorry PA, u wanna talk about it?<3
 
Hills they'll do, but mountains mess with the airflow too much. We had a big one in my town in '91-- loved it to death. But then again, I've always loved storms.

Stay safe, but if you can try to watch some of it. The sheer power behind storms like that are so incredibly awesome--- using the classical meaning of the word.
 
Kinda worthless.

I've been so damn lazy for like the past 6 months, no job, no school just being a lazy shithead. Ugh I don't know, I just don't feel like there is anything I want out of this fucked up world...besides getting high and being left alone. BUT my gf is making me a cake as I type this so, fuck it at least I'll be a well fed worthless shithead.
 
heartburn cos I've run out of my reflux meds :| :(


D's did you hear from you dad??


PA, what's up man? <3
 
no havn't heard anything from my dad yet, last i heard he put himself in the hospital for his mental problems.. that was a lil over a week ago, the hospital he was in i heard it isnt doing so good.
i really hope thats not the case, its like the word travels that everything was destroyed. my dad lives close to where the tornado touched down.
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shit hope pops is alright.
 
D's said:
no havn't heard anything from my dad yet, last i heard he put himself in the hospital for his mental problems.. that was a lil over a week ago, the hospital he was in i heard it isnt doing so good.
i really hope thats not the case, its like the word travels that everything was destroyed. my dad lives close to where the tornado touched down.
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shit hope pops is alright.
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ill be sending lots of hope your way -
keep strong stay yourself.
 
Disappointed/Confused/Relieved


After 6 months with no heroin and close to 4 months without getting high on opiates, I had a 2 day slip where I spent majority of the time in a dreamy daze.

I had been feeling empty and was feeling emptier as each day progressed. Getting high filled that hole, but now I have a crave again.

I was set to pick up more today, but then realized it was a bad decision and called it off.


I don't know what to take from the experience though. I definitely don't want to start using again, but I do miss the excitement that comes with it. Oh, and I got fucckkked up, almost scary fucked up. I'm probably lucky I didn't OD since my tolerance had dropped so much.

It's weird because I know all the bad stuff and I can see it coming if I continue using, but on this one off time, it was like entering a new world with almost virgin veins and tolerance. No worry about using the same vein too much, track marks and bruising, or having to shoot multiple bags to feel alright. It was just the high.


And now I feel low in the time afterwards. I need sometime exciting and new to look forward to.

*end rant*
 
Sober. I worked out a new method of ensuring I don't take drugs or drink. As soon as I get any money, I spend it on bills and groceries and shit. That's the only reason I'm sober - because I have no money. It works really well. Also, my fridge is now full of food and I've gotten myself out of a considerable amount of debt.

Not going to have any money for another six days. That's a whole fucking week of sobriety, and there's nothing I can do about it.

Take that, insufficient will power!
 
^^ That's awesome to hear mate, you're going to feel so much better with a whole week of sobriety under your belt! :)



Me: still procrastinating....starting to panic now :|
 
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PA, what's up man? <3
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I was just really depressed last night about a lot of things basically how my life at the moment more then sucks. Also i was thinking about the fact that there are a few things i want but due to circumstances it's going to be hard to get them.

Right now I'm dead tired because Ive slept fuck all in the past 3 or 4 days. That and a bit bummed out about certain things.
 
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