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How Are You In One Word v. I got a feelin'

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Blah. Ive been sleeping 8-12 hours everyday for the past few weeks. Whenever my alarm goes off I just turn it off and go back to sleep. I just never want to get out of bed :(
 
Herb- i must have read that post slightly wrong but im glad hes doing good. I also dig the nickname and i think it is more fitting herby makes me think of a vw bug for some reason lol and its funny i never really dawned somones nickname all my buddies call me fatjosh cause i grew up in a town whos population was under 15000 until a few years ago so all my friends grew up here and remember a fat little kid, im not even fat anymore but once they stick they stick lol i smiled when i noticed sepher use it lol. Ok now for the important part.......................................................................................................... Blackberry of course.
As for the motorcycle i took the class and there were alot of women there they teach u on really light manueverable bikes lifes short it could be as enjoyable for u as it is for me and anyone can do it i had 7 women in the class with me and two of them had to be pushin fifty.they do seem to make u speed a bit tho as u found out with your son. I will most definitely have pics and videos when i take the course they videotape all 10 jumps in the course i had some pics of the first time i went when i was 16. I made a fake id and used it to go make my first tandem jump but i cant find the disk. Thanks again herb.

Sepher- the days r just gettin better and better, i will remember how good i feel now but it hardly is needed i remember how miserable i was these last 2 years. The first two were fine the last two has felt like a cross between being mugged and being imprisoned that constant anxious feeling of tryin to score all of it r so vivid to me that i wont go back and i kno alot of people say that and relapse but i will not go back my fiance deserves better than me laying in bed nodding out all night and sleeping till 3 then hustle for pills then the process starts over. But thank u so much for the support ill take all i can get in that department.
 
MissNervosa said:
This sounds like I'm over-dramatising but I have a tonne of (rescue and foster) pets the real estate don't know about,and it will take ages just to get rid of pet smells and hide any trace of them being there,as well as giving the whole house a major cleaning.
I don't have any friends that could help either,and my boyfriend will be hardcore job hunting.All I can do is sit and cry right now :(
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Honey I would honestly love to offer to come over and help you guys clean up a bit, but I've got a tonne of uni work that I have to do this weekend :(
Despite that, you really need to cut down your caffeine intake and whatever other OTC supplement you're using. Chest pains are something you really cannot fuck around with hun.
Do you have any spare cash at all to get a professional cleaner in, even if it's just for an hour or two??


My word: exasperated
 
spork said:
I'm jealous. I *still * have yet to go to Great America despite gawking at it every time I drive by. :D Have fun, M. You deserve it. <3
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Thank you my dear! My man will definitely have fun throwing the kids on the coasters now that they're all enough..faces will be priceless.. You def. Need to go.. Sorry about ur job, I know that feeling.. My job does that 2 people also, I'm still waiting for mine.. They don't like me much, but the feeling is mutual...hope it all turns out well..

Wotd: ST0KED
 
n3ophy7e said:
Honey I would honestly love to offer to come over and help you guys clean up a bit, but I've got a tonne of uni work that I have to do this weekend :(
Despite that, you really need to cut down your caffeine intake and whatever other OTC supplement you're using. Chest pains are something you really cannot fuck around with hun.
Do you have any spare cash at all to get a professional cleaner in, even if it's just for an hour or two??

My word: exasperated
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Oh that is so sweet of you <3 I've not touched any of the OTC stuff since I started having chest pains.They're not heart pains,it's more like a stabbing feeling right down the middle of my chest.I've been mixing all sorts of stuff trying to mimic an amphetamine effect- 6 X the maximum supplement dose,huge doses of caffeine and guarana,sudafed and my prescribed dopamine agonist.The last time I did that much was tuesday and had chest pains and threw up and almost passed out from the 1.2 GRAMS of caffeine I'd consumed.
Like I said,I'd only need about 1/10th of a point of speed to get the same effects and oddly enough,it would prob be safer.I'm gonna bite the bullet and ask the tobacconist guy in a dodgy nearby suburb if he can hook me up tomorrow....he seems to know everyone,so it can't hurt to ask.

We've set aside some money to have the carpet in the bedroom where the bunnies live steam cleaned,and I'm surfing gumtree.com.au for really cheap cleaners and will see what I can find.There's still so much work to be done,but if I can't find any amps,I'm just gonna have to think of something else :\

Why are you feeling exasperated? :(
 
NM :( I'm so sorry hun, I can just feel your frantic frustration <3. Please after this visit work on getting that down :(. PM me I have a few natural herbal remedies that have helped me. I had a passive monster addiction for almost 2 years. I wouldn't be able to wake up or do anything without monster and monster only and I would drink 3+ a day. So when you get your inspection on the way let me know and I have a few suggestions. <3

Whats uo n3o :( <3

I'm level as I have been the past week or so. It's a great feeling. :) I'll appreciate it as long a I can.
 
^ I am drinking a monster atm Spork. That made me giggle, lol. What we do for energy? :/
Feeling level headed is always a good time while it lasts. Which is never to long for me. :) <3

ATM: I am just merely trying to get by. Fraustration with money.
 
When i quite monsters i switched to mtn dew and taper from there i kno it sounds silly but the migranes u get without them r no joke i stated drinkin caffine young and every year of highschool i would have a talk with my first periode teacher and explain that these arent optional i have to have two of these down befor my day starts i start one as i get out of bed and usualy cracked number two right befor class started it wasnt funny to have a real addiction at 13 it wasnt meth but everyone called it my blue crack because there was not one morning i didnt walk in with a diet monster.
 
Seriously... I want that stuff tested though. There is something in it that is addicting (it's not the caffeine) other energy drinks never cut it for me. And they tricked me with that free gear to get me hooked! BEVAREEE!!!

Spork :( what the heck lady? :( Let me know what's going on, I'm always free. <3
 
Hoping. As in hoping that things will turn around and get better and reverse this downward spiral that's been going on for the past few years. I just can't take much more of the present situation i just fucking can't.
 
So tired, had my first day IOP and went straight to dealing w other things , finally sitting down for a peaceful night .......

..... Oh wait my roommate lied and hasn't paid rent in two months on top of owing me for some stuff so looks like I'm moving very soon.,.. This is def karma because I'm sure when i vanished to rehab I must have not paid someone back in my life. Regardless , tonight being peaceful ... Ya I can deal w that.
 
MissNervosa said:
There's still so much work to be done,but if I can't find any amps,I'm just gonna have to think of something else :\

Why are you feeling exasperated? :(
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Firstly, I know this is easier said than done, but you've gotta stop telling yourself that you CAN'T do anything without amps. Because that isn't true. Your body and your muscles and limbs are still totally capable of actually DOING stuff without amps. So, maybe just try to tackle one small thing at a time. Like, clean the sink in the bathroom, or tidy up the coffee table, or something really really small like that. Take it one step at a time. It will feel like a much less daunting task. <3

Oh and I'm exasperated because of a friend who just will not accept my new boyfriend. She has always been extremely judgemental and disapproving of all my boyfriends, and she seems to get worse with each new one. It is really upsetting and annoying.


stardust.hero said:
Whats uo n3o :( <3

I'm level as I have been the past week or so. It's a great feeling. :) I'll appreciate it as long a I can.
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See above ;)
I'm so glad you're feeling level hun, it's a good feeling huh :)


Oh and my word right now is concerned, about a lot of things.
 
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