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How Are You In One Word v. I got a feelin'

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villian said:
uneasy
I had the craziest nightmare ever. It involved getting attacked by a bear with 8 legs that walked like a spider and was fast as lightning. I watched it kill my family.

What the fuck is goimg on in my subconcious
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Wow! That is a hell of a nightmare!8(

@Tripnotzm--I can imagine that you are feeling a huge ache over leaving your friend. What a bond you have!<3

me: Procrastinating as usual.What's new?=D
 
Calmly furious, depressed, and violent.

I am making sure that the only social outing I have today is my meeting and then my friends house w him his wife and another girl for dinner and a movie. When I get this way I almost do not feel anything, if I hurt someone I just keep going, if I hurt myself... keep going! After a lot of pain and internal mental frustration I'm near a breaking point and I unfortunately am going to consider doing some inpatient time. I am not sure what / where I will go , or even if I will. But the reality of it is one slip in over a half year of sobriety has fucked my head up so badly that I am in a lonely state of disbelief. I hate pity, I want some answers and I guess I just need more help, again. FML.
 
theartofwar said:
Calmly furious, depressed, and violent.

I am making sure that the only social outing I have today is my meeting and then my friends house w him his wife and another girl for dinner and a movie. When I get this way I almost do not feel anything, if I hurt someone I just keep going, if I hurt myself... keep going! After a lot of pain and internal mental frustration I'm near a breaking point and I unfortunately am going to consider doing some inpatient time. I am not sure what / where I will go , or even if I will. But the reality of it is one slip in over a half year of sobriety has fucked my head up so badly that I am in a lonely state of disbelief. I hate pity, I want some answers and I guess I just need more help, again. FML.
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Art

Keep ur head up man, as cliche as that sounds..ur definitely not alone in ur torment..pm me if u ever want to talk.ur not alone.
 
Failure seems to be the only thing I have got to an art. WTF. The harder I try, the harder the things I need are out of my reach. It seems I need a miracle. :(
 
Confused

I thought taking a few days off from the gymnasium centre for sport would actually help. It has only made things worse. My health condition (finger/wrist) is more worse now after the time off then when I was going daily. Fuck.
 
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