Mind: good
body: not good Was having crazy dreams last night and woke up in a panic and I've been having chills all morning. Mentally I feel good though, weird.
I'd kill for a nice, long, full-body massage right about now. Well, not kill, but perhaps, pay for? Workshopping sun salutations is hard work, perhaps unsurprisingly.
bed
unhappy with myself so i want to take it out on others. Just not applying enough effort to keep myself mentally, emotionally, physically maintained. Wanna fucking fight
hang n there od, i can relate somewhat. people here don't want to do anything for me because i'm like branded with the scarlet letter of relapseing here in the halfway house. plus i got onto one guy for taking my damn mtn.dews without asking, and first thing i wanted to do when i walked up to him with MY drink in his hand i wanted to slap the shit out of his hand and choke his ass.
I make it VERY clean that I am setting a BOUNDRY or w,e. that if he ever touchs my shit again that its not going to be pretty.
so he went and told his friends and since he was in a fancy rehab with them all they all took his side. and im like you sly little basterd.
right now i'm actully happy. my grand sponsors girlfriend got me a valentines pressent. a big ass bag of candy, a card, and a journel to do my step work in. feels good man, shit my mom didn't even tell me happy valentines day.
i feel like i should tell her atleast i love her.
whats the worst that could happen?
if youre referring to fighting and boxing, iii must add.
boxing is different, because it about thought not rage or black passion; balance; premeditating your oppenent; rhythm; stamina; grace; precision; mostly training and discipline; total control; a fair fight.. youd hope