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How Are You In One Word? v. Do A Little Dance, Make A Little Love

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lol od,
i've thought about making a will, but then i'm like. i dont have anything lol.

"goorgled"
 
pissed off

I was going to an interview for a long-shot great job but then I got a call that the interviewer had called in sick. Thursday is now the day. Cleared my schedule because even though it's a long-shot, it will be a good thing if it happens.
 
^since my brother died I realized that if I don't have a Will then the state will acquire my assets. I don't want that to happen. I have two things of significant monetary importance. When I die it'll go like this:

If I go before my folks then they get everything
If I go after my folks, my other brother gets everything
If he goes before me then my niece and nephew get everything

Whats fucked up is that since I've been thinking about getting this together, I've been fantasizing of my death and kind of wanting it to happen sooner than later. That kind of thinking will pass though. I'm trying to keep the focus on realities as opposed to fantasies nowadays. 'Fantasy' is just a pretty word for 'dishonest' and I'm not havin' that. Not today
 
right.

its normal maybe to feel, or think that occasionally.
and a good idea to write out your Will for the reasons you've stated.

heh
thinking about it, it could get interesting haha.
some folks are going to end up with some even stranger memories of me...
to have and to hold, and wonder, what is this anyway?!?
lol
 
Im actually feeling good for maybe the second day in a row. As of late thats been a record so the increased dose of my mood stabilizer must be working since i really can't remember the last time i was happy 2 days in a row.

So me= feeling good :)
 
ocean said:
^Sometimes letting things out, while they will always remain a part of us, can be a major release.
If you ever need to talk, you can PM me anytime <3
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^ Thanks, hun. It undoubtedly was
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. Simply took me a bit of time for me to recover, not to mention process all that was discussed.

Mood as of n o w :
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Creative
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excited
I'm taking myself out on a date tonight to see Black Swan at the movies. I haven't been to the movies for years and really want to see this film. It will be a good distraction from drinking :)
 
^ nice choice, I loved it. It can be a little full-on in places if you're not used to Aronofsky's films though. Have fun =D

I'm restless... today is just dragging on too slowly...
 
n3ophy7e said:
excited
I'm taking myself out on a date tonight to see Black Swan at the movies. I haven't been to the movies for years and really want to see this film. It will be a good distraction from drinking :)
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^ "taking myself out on a date" Hahah! Sounds like me. I rarely go to the movies ever, and always seem to favor absurd independent films & documentaries. For some reason, I'd like to see that one too, though! Hell, maybe it will distract ME from drinking!

Mood as of n o w : Exhausted. I normally drink an energy drink a day, but I haven't had one in two days. Yesterday I ended up falling asleep at around this time—directly next to a plate of food! Haha.
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belarki said:
^ nice choice, I loved it. It can be a little full-on in places if you're not used to Aronofsky's films though. Have fun =D
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Well I am definitely NOT used to Aronofsky's films because I've never seen any of his work :D
BUT I am prepared for it to be intense :)

SideofOpiates you should go and see it too! Then we can compare notes afterwards :)


My current word: full
Wayyy too full! I did a really hard workout at the gym and was starrrrving afterwards, but then I just ate too much. C'mon digestion, do your thang!
 
Sad. Saw the mom today and she brought up how she misses the way our relationship used to be. Things change, things change...
 
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