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How Are You In One Word? v. Do A Little Dance, Make A Little Love

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AMUSED...
On a very funny other website atm; the losers on it make bluelighters look like rockstars...8)
 
tonight was first night out in awhile (and back here w my boy to chill) where I've had a GOOD time in ages. It's been hard to handle recent family issues and the normal slue of PTSD / addiction. So a good night was really appreciated.

Had ups and downs emotionally for sure but my goals are 100% steady and stable. No matter what happens w my family I am not responsible for it or them. I won't stay angry but the two of them did a number on me hurt wisebig timeand that relationship is now and will be different, so be it though.

^ long word, sorry about the rambles lol.
 
^glad you had a good time tonight. it really sounds like you're in the right state of mind, letting go of anger is something to be proud of as it can be really hard to do <3

satisfied i just made the biggest, most delicious batch of beans and rice. i'll be eating super yummy burritos and nachos for the next week

http://simplyrecipes.com/recipes/easy_black_beans_and_rice/

except i used brown rice instead of white rice. :)
 
overwhelmed
in a good, hard to put a finger on kind of way
so many emotions, experiences, memories, kindness and shit ton of other things within a few hours, and yet... nothing negative
time to process all of this
until tomorrow, family <3
 
.desperate.

it now feels like this acidic cold crude liquid, running in an inch wide streak, from the original area i was complaining about in the middle of my thigh, up to the anterior of left hip, and down around towards the interior side of my knee.

i pay my drs and therapists, this is how they earn a living. FFS, they, they cant be bothered???
this seems so impossible,
i can hardly believe its true.
-- i can also hardly believe i cant find a damn patient advocacy group here, in other states i can, but not this one.
:\

well,
at least nothings shocking anymore.
some more intense freedom...
 
^ Awwww! I know that feeling Mari... <3

n3o- Dammit looks like ya'll had a blast! JEALOUS. :-)~

I'm feeling PRODUCTIVE.
I actually swept and vacuumed my house, and am about to wash all of my dishes. Hooray for being back on my ADD meds!
 
Annoyed. Tonight I said a few home truths to a meth addict with untreated schizophrenia, who's been hanging around me a lot, and makes most tweakers look like the sanest people on earth. :\
 
theartofwar said:
I made my secret home made chili w black beans tonight !!!
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TAOW that sounds good and i want some please :)

im feeling optimistic/hopeful
im just trying to have peace and relax.
i have a plan in action but things cant just happen overnight so im anxious for things to be the way they need to be.im confident everything will be ok pretty soon,maybe in two weeks
 
My chili has a lot of kick to it haha , be warned.

me : content - just waiting on my books and worklogs for personal training cert and then it's reading glasses on , surgery , and studying :). All in all things worked out well timing wise.
 
nervous,

gotta turn myself in to the police tommoro. sucks, but gotta do it b4 i can move on with my recovery.
 
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