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How are you in one word? v. 2012

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Dunno.

Over the past few weeks, I've been 'feeling' fine; mostly neutral, sometimes chipper. But if I look at myself as objectively as I can, as an outsider might, I really do seem depressed. Which is worrisome. Either I've abstracted my conscious experience away from my emotions to the point that I've lost touch with them, or I'm just supressing. Either way, something's up.
 
^ Have you been keeping really busy, Dave? Sometimes when I am really busy for a stretch of days, I find that despite feeling fatigued, tired, and so on, I don't feel as "depressed" as normal. I assume it's because I'm too caught up with the practical sides of things to really let the existential angst torment me. There's only so far that you can run with feeling better because of "lack of the bad," though, without any "addition of the good." I want to believe that we humans should feel good because we're engaging good things, not simply because we're getting better at avoiding bad ones. I'll get a bit of induced depression when I realise that I'm only feeling better on a given day because I seem to have temporarily shaken my ego's tail in this hedge-maze of life, and that my ego, unlike me, does not tire while navigating the labyrinth, and statistically it's only a matter of time. I guess the rational solution is to stay busy with things that I do enjoy and would constantly and consistently add to my life. If only if were that simple...if only...

restless

I always get restless on the weekends. I should just go to bed early, as I am more than exhausted, but I'm going to put my headphones on and listen to some trance. That always cheers me up.
 
Awake: I am going to be up for awhile. I slept all the way from 11 something on thursday to 8pm today. I didn't even wake up once during that sleep.
 
DexterMeth said:
Jesus, that is a long ass time to sleep. What's going on with you faded?
Also? Cool story bro :\
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I don't know, and yes it was very long..
And the only reason I woke up at 8pm was because my mom was shaking me awake. She was like "I thought you were dead."
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