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How are you in one word? v. 2012

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Frustrated. I got bored and slipped up. and there is nothing worse then getting half way high. I just need to be normal for awhile... lol
 
Hey stellablu havnt seen u post here n a while.

My word for the day is sick, usually on day 6&7 of mmt i'll get horribly sick. Where i cant hold down any liquids i feel like i must use the bathroom every 10 minutes. Cant sleep l, worried about life such as how I'm going to be able to pay rent next month.
Im just not feeling it today. Have already woke up to my roommates walker scratching about the floor. Its like im re living the short story the tale tale heart by e.a. poe. I couldnt feel possibly any lower in my life. :(
 
Oh hi, eukaryote. Tell Rangrz hello from me as well.

My word: confuckingfabulated. I had a great conversation with a longtime online friend. Life has been 50 shades of fucked lately. I'm untangling it all today, because every week this year... well, those of you who know me, know why. Paperwork sucks. But I wouldn't have it any other way!
 
^ you've earned it, I'm sure!

ATM: Better. How did people live without skype? Seriously?
 
^^ I've still yet to use Skype!! My sister and brother-in-law just moved to Singapore for 6 months so I've sent up my Skype account, just waiting for a good time for us to try it out! :)
Also, very glad to hear you're feeling better Dave <3


I am feeling very meh :| First day back at work after 10 days off......booooooo :( I wanna be back in bed dagnammit!! :!
 
^^ Massive hugs coming your way VanWeyden <3 I hope you're feeling better soon.



*wolf-whistles at Doomed* ;) <3
 
Super duper internet hugs to my mother's home country, we are prussian royalty (deadly serious) my gt, gt, gt great uncle was baron von kaufinski and i get my artistic talents from him <3 big up to my family in germany, dortmund and somewhere in Poland too <3
 
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^^ Massive hugs coming your way VanWeyden <3 I hope you're feeling better soon.



*wolf-whistles at Doomed* ;) <3
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It's bouncy super fun time soon ( thank god, i get horny from my meds/heightnened senses from my condition. Fella fecking loves that particular side effect hehehe <3 (devilish grin on my face)
 
Exhausted been up since the other morning, then worked 6 hours and now I'm home but can't fall asleep :( the worst thing is that I'm sober too.
 
Thanks so much to both of you, you're so cute!

Super duper internet hugs to my mother's home country, we are prussian royalty (deadly serious) my gt, gt, gt great uncle was baron von kaufinski and i get my artistic talents from him big up to my family in germany, dortmund and somewhere in Poland too
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You must be joking! I'm living in a neighbour town of Dortmund and am a huge Borussia Dortmund fan! Coincidence?
 
Somewhat Dissapoint :(
The big 30 was sposed to be time for me to let go of the remaining vices.. But im sittin here with a ciggy and a tallie.
Fought the shit so hard for about 6 hours too.
I suppose tomorow is another day, and il just have to try and jump on that wagon again.
Ciggys bein this hard to give up im terrified @ the thought of having to come off my benzo... Done it once but @ a WAY smaller dose. Loathe having to take these fucking things to be even half ok:X
 
^^ You're absolutely right man, tomorrow is another day. Just keep on trying, one day it will just click. Don't forget to praise yourself and be proud of any small victories. Instead of saying "Mannn, I held out for 6 hours and still gave in", say "I managed to hold off for 6 whole hours today! Tomorrow I'm going to try for 8 hours" :) <3
 
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