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How are you in one word? v. 2012

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Miserable. ..

My mom n stepdad have been n Hawaii for the past 15days and left me ncharge of taking care of their home. So i have. And now that they are back they are kicking me out. Ive got my own place but i fuking hate it with such a passion. I hate my fucking 66 yr old room mate. Living there is like egdger allan poes story the tale tale heart. I hear my room mates walker scaddleing across the fucking ground and it keeps me up all night. Also knowing that he doesnt use the bathroom and instead he has fucking pee bottles and buckets all over the fucking place. Im cleaning out my car later and make it where if i need to i can put a small sleeping mat in it.
 
D's - I threw a party once I housesat for my aunt. Now my cousins get all the privileges even though they are real fuckups. I suppose my aunt has her priorities. They are not her blood relatives and she hasn't done shit for my father; if my stepcousins are favored over my father, there better be fucking rainbows, airplanes, etc. I didn't get married, pregnant, or any of that shit - nothing against those who did. I will defend my Dad. He is my best friend.

My father also makes me sad because he will not get away from this shit.
 
Hey jen. That makes me feel a lil better. The thing i miss most is the fact that i had the house i grew up in to myself for several days. Now im back to the house i hate.. its hard for me to look beyond the ressentment i have between my fucking room mate.
Il sick of it here.. i told my mom and she knows that i dont like it here and if worse comes to worse thets one of those rent weekly hotels thats not that expensive. Like 135$ weekly. Celly battery dieen il update later.
 
Fucking totaly and absolutly RAGEING so fucking pssed @ the silly little system poor people have to dance to, im ready to fucking king hit anyone who looks @ me the wrong way today. Probably best i stay @ home.
 
D's: seriously? Pee bottles? Fucking gross. If he can't make it to the bathroom in time, fair enough-- he needs a catheter then, not disgusting pee bottles. /shudder

ATM: slowlygettingbetter
 
ive actually been in a real good place and mood for the past 3 weeks.. eating healthier, signed up at a gym and started to exercise and whatnot...
 
anxious
i have to go to like 41 or 42 more meetings in the next 2 and half months, i hate 12 step meetings
 
a bit overwhelmed. Wait, that is a total cop out. How can you be a bit overwhelmed? (just say it!) OVERWHELMED.
 
BeautifulSADNESS said:
Confused :/

...Maybee cause shes still here even after she saw my package i come with
...Cause she made me feel like i never hurt before
...She's Not a He
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If it feels right, just go with it :) <3


herby you doing okay love?? What's going on? <3


Reckless I hope you're doing okay man, take it easy <3


I am feeling insomniated.
 
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