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How are you in one word? v. 2012

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^ What?! That's unpossible!

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ATM: Confused? Submitted my first abstract for presentation at a national conference, but also feel like I'm getting nothing real done at work, and completely unsettled at home. Biketiem!
 
bewildered/relieved

can't believe my problem was so simple....in one way at least.
I felt so horribly depressed the past few days, but I now realize it's because I have barely eaten in a week. Especially not CARBS! You know those things that are so hard to get down when you're on stimulants / depressed / manic ? I forced down a bowl of pasta earlier and i feel sooooo much better than I have the past few days. Wow. Can't get over how stupid that was of me. Not to mention I look like a skeleton now : / never going to skip a carb filled breakfast again...
 
^ my diets not doing so well either fpt4.....
Reality-hit
Been to therapy today, 32 hrs sober offa alchohol and right now im back here with a beer he basicly TOLD me i would buy, Heres the way it kinda played out..." The only way im gonna get anywhere near better is voluntary detox". And i hear its especialy fucked up the way they do it here, need off weed n alchohol.... Terrified that my benzos will be taken off me... Im serioulsy fucked:(
And the last few days have taken just a little more of my sanity.
 
^been there before. for me it passed when i got to know him a little better and realized how not for me he was.

my word is nervous. i'm dissecting a sheep's heart for my human biology class and i'm terrified that i'm going to do something wrong and soak myself and all my classmates with sheep's blood...
 
Motivated I bought a bunch of seeds to plant since we moved to a new house with plenty of outside room to keep plants and make a garden.

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Spork, I repeated Anatomy II 3 times (those were the drone days) and had to dissect a smelly formaldehyde cat 3 times. Needless to say I at least learned how to skin an animal. I cans now become a hunter? Hearts seem way cooler to dissect!
 
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