How a girl ruined my life

[pirates_]

ok I met this girl right, she loved to drink and smoke weed, which was cool.. I was an occasional drinker and xanax pill popper(used to do it waaay to much back in my early 20's) One day about 3 months ago, we were chillen I was barred out and she was drunk... She brought up the idea of giving me a roll I was like ok lets do this... I call my buddy up to get some(i never tried it before) and he comes with heroin...I loved downers...no biggie so i did it... it was awesome soooo


I made the girl try it and she said since she tried H i have to do x....so I went with it...long story short, I broke up with this girl and went on a month to 1 month and a half long binge....until I had a bad trip..so i stopped... then i starting using adderall, but that just wasnt my cup of tea.....soooo

I got heavy on the xanax again but the xanax was messing me up too. I had a couple of seizures so i stopped that.... so from the xanax I went to the loratabs.......and thats where I am at now......I cant stop taking them...I am on24 hours without them right now and I am trippin...Im dizzy, sweaty, very effin pissed.........I need relief........... are their any natrual supps i can buy to make the ugly feeling go away?? I got some tramadol...but I hear its bad to take with tabs.....any ideas??? how about some kava kava...ugh i feel ugly some one help me..............


Damn that girl got getting me on xo's which led to xanax which led to tabs......so what if she is hooked on herion now..............

 

[alasdairm]

i am thoroughly confused. it's not clear to me at all how a girl ruined your life...

try taking responsibility for your own actions, instead of blaming others for the choices you make?

alasdair

 

[Specktrail]

I agree with alasdair... And if your so broken up about what this girl "did" to you.. Make yourself feel better by getting your habbits under control..... And come on can you really blame this all on some girl ..

 

[paranoid android]

Sorry buddy but the girl didnt fuck up your life you did. Noone but yourself made you take heroin or E and that is all there is too it. If you stopped lying to yourself and blaming other people that would be a start.

 

[RedLeader]

If she's hooked on H now then it sounds like you both made bad choices and ruined your own lives for the moment. Don't blame each other.

First step to getting your own shit back together would be to leave her out of your mind. When you're chasing a high, don't also chase old feelings of the "xo's" as well. Fix your life for you, for your body, for your future. Plenty of "xo's" in the sea...

 

[rm-rf]

accountability

a girl ruined your life?

or youre not willing to accept responsibility for your own actions?

also,

how is your life "ruined" ?

 

[ChemicalSmiles]

First of all you were taking xanax before you met this girl.... second of all the DRUG ABUSE has ruined your life, not the girl. Get help if you can't quit, I suggest making a dark side post. They are there to help!

 

[Jabberwocky]

a common theme amongst the most ill people (in my experience, on a psych ward) is that their problems are never their fault. this is a classic example.

personally i prefer being the artist of my own downfall than blaming it on someone who inevitably shouldn't have that much power over me....

 

[Lysis]

The "Eve gave Adam the apple so it's Eve's fault he ate it" syndrome. Would you have said "No" to the drugs if it were a guy who gave them to you?

 

[doppelganga196]

Mate i genuinely believe a trip on psychedelic mushrooms (with good set & setting of course) would help you step outside yourself & see what an out of control mess you are & hopefully repell you from your ways

You seem to have a benzo addiction that you are improvising recovery from with opiates. A doctor could help.