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please see a doctor before this progresses any further. they will not turn you away, but will do everything they can to help you. i know how difficult it can be to take this step, but it's something that needs to happen and you'll feel better when it does. if you have a general practitioner see them first and they'll refer you to someone else. please take care of yourself. much love.

 

Hang in there man.
Life can be shitty at times.
Sometimes i feel like things could never progress when i am at my lowest points..
But life always changes. You just need to strive for happiness. Stay positive, don't think about death or suicide. Tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity to seek new happiness, which is waiting right around the corner.
Open yourself to the beautiful world that surrounds you.

 

As someone whom lost it all, and I mean lost it ALL I went into a depression in which I didnt even eat or sleep for months. Lost half my teeth (and I'm a good lookin guy), lost my wife, lost my kid, lost my car, my house on 5 acres, my studio, my musical career everything.

Go see a Dr right away and get a referral to a psych. It's better to get started now then when you're at rock bottom. Cause while rock bottom seems far away, there isnt shit to hold onto while you're falling.

 

You are not alone. It's great that you are writing about this stuff here and getting it out of your head. I have a lot of the same problems with chemicals and depression, its pretty common where I'm living.The best advice I can give is don't give up lookin for happiness, keep tryin new stuff and makin new friends, and keep your eyes open so you don't miss the good things that come your way, I'm sure it will. Take it easy.