hopefully, you'll learn.

[-tears-for-you-]

while you were here,
i took all the blame.
four years later,
i'm still in such shame.
i could look and look,
but you were never there.
just criticize and hurt.
that's completely unfair.
you sit and dwell on the past,
complaining why you two didn't last.
there's nothing i could write to show all the pain.
no matter what you do, it'll still remain.
for all the things you've done to me,
and all the things you shouldn't have,
i'll never be able to forgive you all the way.
oh, and it's "mom", you'd like me to say?
respect, you need to earn.
hopefully, someday you'll learn.
because you'll never understand,
this is for making me so gray.
as i lower my head, and walk away.
i want nothing to do with you.
i try repeatedly,
but, i can't get that through.
about you can't understand this,
i think you never did,
i totally resent the fact
i was born your kid.

 

[nephil]

We cannot change who our parents are
but luckily we can learn from their errors, just how not to be...
and thats what makes us better

 

[*Cosmic Mist*]

Let me begin this post by stating plainly that I relate. Then let me place MUCH more emphasis ont his fact, by restating that I RELATE.
I know the pain that is felt by the abandonment of a parent, yes, a monther what's more, and i feel for you. The rejection of a boyfriend, of a lover, of friends just does not compare to the rejection of a mother - flesh and blood, yours, she may be, but in your heart you know that she cannot be a part of you, for she is not worthy, and never again shall be. Perhaps i speak too much from personal experience...
If you need someone to vent to, email me... i'll be more than happy to hear form you.
*big hugs*