hmmmm..............here agin

[madmick19]

today was one of the worst days of my mind,
get up auto pilot on ......check

swirling torrents of rampaging emotional espionage
round and round through my clouded fragile mindspace
reality as the bus pulls up to my work

monday 3rd day at a new job doing the same old shite
being a mechanic, not so much fun no more
no challenge just running dep in my blood......
like being a glorified lube monkey
drive car in fix it drive car out.
autopilot still on, no thinking required

standing in the workshop
that cloud of doubt enveloping my soul
i feel cold inside,
insecurities start to whisper
in one ear
then the other

never allowing more than my hands
to feel the way through this endless fog of despair
a wagon unable to get its wheels out the rut
the wheels climbing the walls
only to have the wall crumble
the rut widens again

like a freak merry go round lasting 24hrs,
your back where your started
about to embark on what you already know is the track,
but not knowing how bumpy the ride will be berfore you get back...

 

[katmeow]

a wagon unable to get its wheels out the rut
the wheels climbing the walls
only to have the wall crumble
the rut widens again

Know the feeling

Hope things are going ok!!

 

[cherub]

First,,,,, I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!! * BIG HUGS* (hit me up sometime)

Second,, i feel you,,, this is a very relatable piece! Good work darlin!