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[troypark]

hi guys! recently joined bluelight, have been on this website countless times for advice and what not.
have been addicted to ritalin since november 2015 on and off. recently have come off it but now using tramadol.
I cant seem to stay sober. i have real trouble waking up in the morning which is what started my ritalin addiction however after a while more negatives came with it then positives and i didnt enjoy the high anymore.
my friend then introducted me to tramadol. For some weird reason this particular drug keeps me awake with mild euphoria. At first when i heard painkiller the first thing that popped into my mind was ketamine. However this was nothing like ketamine. Have been on tramadol for approximately 4 weeks now 4-5 times a week 300-400mgs each time. I understand the effects it has on my health. I really want to be able to live sober. I am not only addicted to tramadol and ritalin but also abuse nos. Im sure there are people out there that can relate. I really really hate this lifestyle, i want to do these only for recreational and not to the point where i cant function without them or have mood swings. Any advice or even just people that have similiar problems that could post, that'd be great. I feel really lonely as the people around me have no idea of my problem, let alone what its like dealing with trying to quit,

 

[Bearlove]

Welcome to the site

Your not alone with your love/hate relationship with your lifestyle and I know that there are a lot of people on here who feel the same. Tramadol is a strange drug in the way that it effects people in different ways (or has zero effects) - some feel an opiate like chilled buzz, others (myself included) feel a speedy edge to it. Are you taking the 400mg all at once or over the course of the day? Have you tried tapering - taking a little less one day, give your body time to adjust then drop your dose a bit more, then a bit more. Usually a lot easier that just stopping or trying to drop your dose to quickly.

Have a look around the site as there is a lot of information on Tramadol and addiction on a variety of substances (sober living is a good place to start for advice on getting sober)

 

[troypark]

Hi thank you so much for replying yes i take it all at once. Days I have work I can't take it and feel like complete shit. For me tramadol helps with overall mood of my day. Don't really see it as a recreational "weekend drug" but thats what scares me the most.