Hi I'm new

[bigboibilly77]

recently been diagnosed with PTSD FROM EX MILITARY AND WHEN I WAS THE AGES OF OF 7-9 HAD BAD THINGS DONE TO ME I DEALT WITH MY WHOLE LIFE NEVER TALKED ABOUT THEM TILL ABOUT 4 YEARS AGO WHEN I HAD A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN FROM AN HOSPITAL OVERDOSEINF ME WITH WARFARIN MY BRAIN CHANGED SO I GOT MEDICAIDE AND MY HEAD DOC SAID IM ADHD,BIPOLAR,BOURDERLINE PHSCYSOPHRENIC ,MAJOR SOCIAL ANXIETY AND I HAVE AGORAPHOBOBIA THE ANAL SURGENE FOUND A 1.5 CM MASS THAT COULDNT BE REMOVED AN DIDNT KNOW WHAT IT WAS THE OTHER DOCTORS WORRY CAUSE THEYVE NEVER REMOVED SO MANY PRE CANCER POLYPS FROM SOME MY AGE AT 38 10 IN ALL EVERY DOC IVE TALKED TO ABOUT CUMIDIN HAVE SAID 6 MONTHS IS MAX FOR MEDS BUT I WAS GOING TO CLINIC I WAS HIS FIRST PATIENT DEALING WITH BLOOD CLOTS HE SCREWED ME IF ANYONE HAS HAD THIS D DIMER DONE I GOT CHECKED EVERY WEEK AN IT NEVERE STAYED BETTWEEN 2-3 LIKE NORMAL BUT IT WOULD B AS HIGH AS 6.8 OR AS LOW AS .04 I LIVED IN AGONY SINCE 2012 GOING TO SLEEP NOT KNOWING IF IM GONNA WAKE AND NOE I HAVE FIBROMYALGA IM JUST WONDERING IF THE COUMADIN COULD CAUSE ALOT OF THIS AND TO MAKE THINGS WORSE NON OF THIS WOULDA HAPPENED IF VA BEACH GENERAL HADNT CASTED MY TORN ACHILLES WRONG WHICH LED TO MY 8 BLOOD CLOTS IN MY LEFT LEG IN ONE DAY I JUST WORRY ABOUT IF I COULD GETCANCER BECAUSE THE TUBULAR ADENOMA THEY REMOVED FROM MY COLON BOOSTS MY CHANCE OF GETTING CANCER BY 75% AND THE MASS THEY COULDNT REMOVE AT 1&HALF CM THEY DONT KNOW WHAT IT IT IS IM JUST TIRED OF FEELING TIRED IM NOT DEPRESSED I HAVE A DIEING MOTHER TO TAKE CARE OF AND A 26 YR OLD THAT HAD MEDULAR BLASTOMA WHEN HE WAS 12 AN I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIM FOREVER.I JUST GET TIRED OF GOING TO PAIN MANAGMENT TO GET HELP LIKE IM A DOPE HEAD IM NOT ASKING FOR NARCOTICS JUST MY TRAMADAL AND LYRICA IT ALLOWS ME TO GET THINGD
S DONE ALONG WITH MY ADDERALL OTHERWISE IF I DIDNT HAVE IT OR MY ADDERALI COULD CONCENTRATE ON ANYTHING SO THANX FOR READING AN ANY HELP

 

[bigboibilly77]

any help I'm new