Knickermallow
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- Dec 27, 2018
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Hello to all here, and good tidings to you guys. I am going by the username "Knickermallow" - sounds a little silly but there 'is' a heartfelt meaning behind the name ^^
I am a 48 year old girl from the American Midwest, and unfortunately suffer from severe lower left lumbar injuries. Chronic pain has been a big part of my life, following me around now for about 3 & 1/2 years, give or take, and has so negatively affected my life.
That's what brought me here, to find not only medication information but maybe support or just to read from people who understand chronic pain. I've found that most people around me just don't get it. They haven't experienced it so "chronic" & "pain," for them, is just two words put together. I try to understand.
I also deal with mental issues which of course do not mix well with chronic physical pain. Regarding the physical pain, I just, I never knew how something can hurt my body, and never, not ever, truly stop. Except it has only a few times. It's heartbreaking.
I do not mean to sound so negative but I also wish to be truthful, so that if something ever goes well, it will be the iron-clad truth. Thus, I'll say that right now, in life, I just feel I've lost myself. I've gained 100 pounds and was already overweight before 3 series of steroid injection procedures caused me to swell up from (220 pounds) to (322 when I weighed this morning). I so miss me, and don't have a clue of how to get her back. 220 was a nice cute weight for me and I could walk and stand in long lines, ...well, before the injuries that is. I was a bouncy firm and always told I look like a cartoon ^^ {oh those sure we're the days}
It has now become my goal to walk into a big store with a lengthy list, push a cart instead of ride in one, and stand in a long line while waiting to pay for my basket-full of items. Sounds silly huh? ...but I miss that. Of course I didn't know that I missed it until the ability was pulled out from under me, almost literally. But, I miss it. Such a basic of life, but so precious an opportunity it was.
But that's enough of my babbling. I'm glad to be here and I thank the admins for including me. I forgot to see if I could add what medications I take and my illnesses in more detail (my bad) so I will study more about what I can include and may come back and edit some time.
Just a few lighter tidbits on me: I'm an actress and a songwriter; I also dabble heavily (if there's such a thing ^^) in poetry and prose. I sing and am working on my first album (not to try and submit commercially, just for personal reasons) and I am two semesters away from a Master's degree In TESOL. I already have a Bachelor's in General Studies. My favorite color is yellow when I'm happy and feel free, but turns tk stone cold grey when I'm feeling downtrodden.
My favorite musical artists are Tori Amos and Debbie Gibson. My own original music and songs are sort of a mix between the two and it has always been that way, wayyy back in the 80's even before I ever heard either of them on the radio, so it was pretty neat to hear and say, "Hey cool! I am a.mixture if their polar oppossite styles!"
Well I guess that's enough for now. I hope that I can both help and get some good learning done on this website. I'm sure glad to be a part of it.
Thanks for reading this. I'm sorry it got so lengthy, and may God bless all of you, always^^
With Warm Regards,
~ Knickermallow.
I am a 48 year old girl from the American Midwest, and unfortunately suffer from severe lower left lumbar injuries. Chronic pain has been a big part of my life, following me around now for about 3 & 1/2 years, give or take, and has so negatively affected my life.
That's what brought me here, to find not only medication information but maybe support or just to read from people who understand chronic pain. I've found that most people around me just don't get it. They haven't experienced it so "chronic" & "pain," for them, is just two words put together. I try to understand.
I also deal with mental issues which of course do not mix well with chronic physical pain. Regarding the physical pain, I just, I never knew how something can hurt my body, and never, not ever, truly stop. Except it has only a few times. It's heartbreaking.
I do not mean to sound so negative but I also wish to be truthful, so that if something ever goes well, it will be the iron-clad truth. Thus, I'll say that right now, in life, I just feel I've lost myself. I've gained 100 pounds and was already overweight before 3 series of steroid injection procedures caused me to swell up from (220 pounds) to (322 when I weighed this morning). I so miss me, and don't have a clue of how to get her back. 220 was a nice cute weight for me and I could walk and stand in long lines, ...well, before the injuries that is. I was a bouncy firm and always told I look like a cartoon ^^ {oh those sure we're the days}
It has now become my goal to walk into a big store with a lengthy list, push a cart instead of ride in one, and stand in a long line while waiting to pay for my basket-full of items. Sounds silly huh? ...but I miss that. Of course I didn't know that I missed it until the ability was pulled out from under me, almost literally. But, I miss it. Such a basic of life, but so precious an opportunity it was.
But that's enough of my babbling. I'm glad to be here and I thank the admins for including me. I forgot to see if I could add what medications I take and my illnesses in more detail (my bad) so I will study more about what I can include and may come back and edit some time.
Just a few lighter tidbits on me: I'm an actress and a songwriter; I also dabble heavily (if there's such a thing ^^) in poetry and prose. I sing and am working on my first album (not to try and submit commercially, just for personal reasons) and I am two semesters away from a Master's degree In TESOL. I already have a Bachelor's in General Studies. My favorite color is yellow when I'm happy and feel free, but turns tk stone cold grey when I'm feeling downtrodden.
My favorite musical artists are Tori Amos and Debbie Gibson. My own original music and songs are sort of a mix between the two and it has always been that way, wayyy back in the 80's even before I ever heard either of them on the radio, so it was pretty neat to hear and say, "Hey cool! I am a.mixture if their polar oppossite styles!"
Well I guess that's enough for now. I hope that I can both help and get some good learning done on this website. I'm sure glad to be a part of it.
Thanks for reading this. I'm sorry it got so lengthy, and may God bless all of you, always^^
With Warm Regards,
~ Knickermallow.
:D
