My Skewed View
Greenlighter
Hi I am new & after reading about TDS (plus the pre-reads) I knew I should come here.
Hi all, glad to finally have a place where my life won't seem so messed up to others. I have a long history of sexual abuse, including incest, rape from a stranger and by my (ex) husband, domestic violence including , emotional, verbal, physical and sexual abuse. My mother was/is a sever drug addict/alcoholic, my father was a good man but sadly he passed away 2 yrs ago. I stated drinking & smoking @ 7 yrs of age, pot by 8, cocaine etc..all within the next few years. I was diagnosed with PTSD at age 29 and histrionic personality disorder at age 17. I am currently on methadone, klonopins and clonodine, I try not to drink or smoke weed in excess anymore bc I have 3 kids & am trying to give them a better life than I had. Also I have a very bad liver. I have been trying to change many behaviors and patterns just to better my life for my kids, my ex isn't allowed to see them currently & he never has helped with them, financial or other so I am doing this alone. I am hyper vigilant and never really sleep, I struggle every day with the anxiety & now that I am fairly clean I am dealing with incidents/periods of my life I blocked or smothered with drugs. I do not judge anyone and I almost never tell people unless I am very close to them about all the things I have done or lived through, most cannot understand or judge me based off of what I have told them. I am relieved to have found this and am very glad to be here.
Hi all, glad to finally have a place where my life won't seem so messed up to others. I have a long history of sexual abuse, including incest, rape from a stranger and by my (ex) husband, domestic violence including , emotional, verbal, physical and sexual abuse. My mother was/is a sever drug addict/alcoholic, my father was a good man but sadly he passed away 2 yrs ago. I stated drinking & smoking @ 7 yrs of age, pot by 8, cocaine etc..all within the next few years. I was diagnosed with PTSD at age 29 and histrionic personality disorder at age 17. I am currently on methadone, klonopins and clonodine, I try not to drink or smoke weed in excess anymore bc I have 3 kids & am trying to give them a better life than I had. Also I have a very bad liver. I have been trying to change many behaviors and patterns just to better my life for my kids, my ex isn't allowed to see them currently & he never has helped with them, financial or other so I am doing this alone. I am hyper vigilant and never really sleep, I struggle every day with the anxiety & now that I am fairly clean I am dealing with incidents/periods of my life I blocked or smothered with drugs. I do not judge anyone and I almost never tell people unless I am very close to them about all the things I have done or lived through, most cannot understand or judge me based off of what I have told them. I am relieved to have found this and am very glad to be here.
