Hi from Vienna

[Jnowhere]

Hi,

I am a musician from Vienna. I do music from classical violin to progadelic - a blend of progressive and psychedelic

My uncle was addicted to amphetamines. His doctor prescribed him Captagon (Fenetyllin) for a kind of burn out. He did not took any drugs before. He got addicted and when Captagon got on the black list and illegal he studied Chemistry books (my mum was a ballerina and chemist, my uncle was her brother) to get or produce something similar. He tested all kind of drugs and when I was 16 he told me exactly what drug does what to you. That was very educational. I believe that is something you should be taught at school.
His life went downwards till he committed suicide (he was clean while doing it)
That was kind of traumatic I suppose, so I somehow felt very empathetic to drug users.

Happy to be here.

Yeah, suicide is something that has haunted me. I want to fight with the official death ruling of my only sibling. But an accidental drug overdose is not exactly comforting.

I personally just can't figure out what was real. Was it a seizure, a suicide, or an accidental drug overdose?

Somehow suicide is just so awful, especially when you see your only sibling in a body bag.

I just wish that people, would have the courage to reach out for help. I don't know and will never know. But that idea of suicide haunts me. I am in denial because things are not clear. But suicide, is just so haunting.

I hope that you can deal with it better than me. I think the not knowing the truth is the worst part.

 

[Ki3ly]

To me it seems more like an accidental overdose. Or maybe it was all three because she was very obese which made her health bad and she felt depressed and didn't really care that she took too much medicine
because she was feeling bad.

Maybe she didn't know she took too much.

When I first started taking hydrocodone in huge amounts, I had
no idea it could do that to you. I passed out so bad I thought that I had almost stopped breathing.

It really really scared me and I cried really bad over it because it was so horrible. I ended up wasted on a couch. I learned to be very careful and cautious after that. But I had to learn

the hard way. I was very strong too and I worked out everyday and ate healthy. We just don't know medicine
can just actually be that strong.

I think that was a very horrible label to have to put on her and for doing that to her.
Intentionally and purposely a suicide I absolutely just can't see it either.

That was really terrible. Isn't there some way you can propose a non suicide I wonder.
They should have at least gave her the benefit of the doubt in a more appropriate way.

Were they trying to scare you. Would they be agreeable enough to change it to something
less severe and more mutually acceptable to see if authorities would be

agreeable to amending the statement much better or properly.

 

[Ki3ly]