Oldman Liver
Bluelighter
Hi, airbuddy, long time lurker here. Sorry to be so long winded and rambly, thats just how I am bein an old codger and what not. But I really enjoy reading all the comments and reports on BL, so I thought I might enjoy being more active and chiming in now and then. I'm kind of getting old and I have haven't taken psychedelics, which is my interest in drugs, for a looong time. When I was wee whispersnapper in California back in the 70's and 80's I took my lickins from rough trips, mean authority figures, unsupportive siblings and parents and came out not regreting any of it. Its just the wages of psychedelic sin in old MR. McGeever's land of the American Drug war, I suppose. Just acid and shrooms and good weed for me mostly back then. I did get a then very rare chance to smoke DMT back in the day which I took. Not sure it was actually DMT tho. The substance was dull waxy whitish-grey or beige as I recall, not the gorgeous orange crystals I see in all them fancy magazines. The trip was definitely psychedelic and very short, a ten minute experience of meeting an entity that looked like a Victorian doll who was utterly terrified to see that i could see her and she climbed up the walls in my living room disappeared through the cieling which had turned into her mother's glass skirt through which i could see all the stars and constellations even though it was about 4 pm and completely daytime outside. But all of that was superimposed on normal "reality" not the kind of thing I have heard DMT is, where you completely leave this realm. Perhaps the dose was too small or it was some other tryptamine. MDMA came my way the month it was made illegal and I had a great evening on the couch with a girlfriend. A vision appeared of this guy in a blue suit playing a saxophone. I have never heard of MDMA being visionary, but it was for me that one night. 6 months later I went to an Ornette Coleman gig in San Francisco at Wolfgang's and I was absolutely dumbfounded: that MDMA vision was of Ornette at Wolfgang's, he was wearing the exact same blue suit as the vision and striking the same kind of moves as he played through the two sets they did. Not sure what the prupose of having been presented the preminition by goood golly Miss Molly was, but it was a mind blowingly good Ornette date, and among the greatest live music I have ever heard and i was not on anything either. Ornette had been playing with his band Prime Time for quite a few years and they were just locked in as one organism and the cubistic controlled chaotic funk they churned out was psychedelic as hell. I have never found a record by Ornette or heard him and his band play that well since. Ornette did pass away about 7 years ago, so I suppose that makes it a tall order to out do that show at this point. But the girlfriend dumped me about 5 days after we took X together and she was nice enough to give me the rest of her stash and told me to go take it with a friend of hers who was interested in me and see what develops. Very bad idea but I was totally into this chick completely crestfallen to get dumped after a great MDMA experience with her and did as she suggested. I actually sat arguing with this chick half the night, she really bugged me, probably a first an angry MDMA trip. But both times I took MDMA I had pretty strong hangovers, really bleak depression for a few days that made that drug not one I decided I liked. PCP was rampant in Los Angeles back then too and I had some very bizarre experiences a few times after taking a few hits off of joints passed to me by people I didn't know that well. Some of whom I have told about these experiences have said, "Oh yeah, that sounds like PCP to me. There's some good weed out there but not like that!" But no I never got your 2cb and ALD-52, AL-LAD, ETH-LAD, and 4HO-MET and 4HO-MIPT.
I spent many years eschewing psychedelics for yoga and meditation which I still practice and hope I will some day become enlightened and I hope the same for all of you kids today gettin' started out there trippin'. I was kind of surprised a few years ago when the lama on the Buddhist retreat I was on began half kidding around with us one day about whether we had had any interesting mushroom trips or LSD trips lately. Some of the other yogis confirmed, "No he's not kidding, and I drop acid from time to time myself just to get another angle to check myself on." At the time I said, "Oh come on you don't need to do that do you?"
The last time I had tripped was when I was 26, 30 years before this, and that whole 30 years my attitude was, "Well, the whole thing about life is an insane trip I'm on any way. Psychedelics don't do anything for me." Tho I also did writing and music and art during those 30 years, and people always complained, "I feel like I'm on acid when I read your stuff!" Or "You guys just play drug music!" Or the art I do now almost always gets these looks from people and comments like, "You're like one of those LSD-aholics aren't you? If you didnt take acid all the time you'd have nothing to make art off of, would you?" And to me I just don't get why that invalidates what you do, but some people have no respect for the altered space or dreams and visions for that matter. They don;t get that that is where all the movies and books and stuff they love comes from ultimately.
Anyway, I feel I have come full circle, a mighty long circle at that and I feel I am interested to go back to psychedelics and explore. Only one problem: I live in a country where you could get the death penalty, have your property seized, your entire life destroyed for having one little tab of an LSD analog on your person. In fact there is a guy here in this country from Holland who made a good amount of money running hashish coffee shops in the Netherlands and the authorities here seized his house, bank account and threw him in prison for life because his money was made from a source that was illegal in his new country over here. Real creative prosecution and way to snatch people's money, eh? So, I am no way going to go there or any where even near there ordering research chemicals and what not. But one can still discuss and read and find out about such things on Erowid and Bluelight and I enjoy that almost as much as i would tripping. There is always my memories of all the experiences I had back in the day and my memory is quite good, perhaps too good.
OK, thats my introduction, I hope it was something more than just trivial, slightly stupid and annoying! Cheers!
I spent many years eschewing psychedelics for yoga and meditation which I still practice and hope I will some day become enlightened and I hope the same for all of you kids today gettin' started out there trippin'. I was kind of surprised a few years ago when the lama on the Buddhist retreat I was on began half kidding around with us one day about whether we had had any interesting mushroom trips or LSD trips lately. Some of the other yogis confirmed, "No he's not kidding, and I drop acid from time to time myself just to get another angle to check myself on." At the time I said, "Oh come on you don't need to do that do you?"
The last time I had tripped was when I was 26, 30 years before this, and that whole 30 years my attitude was, "Well, the whole thing about life is an insane trip I'm on any way. Psychedelics don't do anything for me." Tho I also did writing and music and art during those 30 years, and people always complained, "I feel like I'm on acid when I read your stuff!" Or "You guys just play drug music!" Or the art I do now almost always gets these looks from people and comments like, "You're like one of those LSD-aholics aren't you? If you didnt take acid all the time you'd have nothing to make art off of, would you?" And to me I just don't get why that invalidates what you do, but some people have no respect for the altered space or dreams and visions for that matter. They don;t get that that is where all the movies and books and stuff they love comes from ultimately.
Anyway, I feel I have come full circle, a mighty long circle at that and I feel I am interested to go back to psychedelics and explore. Only one problem: I live in a country where you could get the death penalty, have your property seized, your entire life destroyed for having one little tab of an LSD analog on your person. In fact there is a guy here in this country from Holland who made a good amount of money running hashish coffee shops in the Netherlands and the authorities here seized his house, bank account and threw him in prison for life because his money was made from a source that was illegal in his new country over here. Real creative prosecution and way to snatch people's money, eh? So, I am no way going to go there or any where even near there ordering research chemicals and what not. But one can still discuss and read and find out about such things on Erowid and Bluelight and I enjoy that almost as much as i would tripping. There is always my memories of all the experiences I had back in the day and my memory is quite good, perhaps too good.
OK, thats my introduction, I hope it was something more than just trivial, slightly stupid and annoying! Cheers!
