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Hey wherez all the drugz at (Church hello thread)?

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i want more
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I was wundering how reliable those sources posted on the chemtrading websites are, sum are european, sum are chinese, but none of them take craditcards or anything
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Come on. This is absolutely stupid. Like any vendor that sells quasi legal chemicals would accept a fucking credit card. I hope it was a joke?
 
i got excited, i thought church stopped by to well wish us! i sad again



**takes 4th Methadone today to quich overwhelming depression from the lack of church even though he lives like 40 miles away***


quit playing games with my heart







its my heart
 
Dammit! I have been lured as well.

Church said:
It's actually been really great, for a change, to not be even thinking about "journeying." My number one reason for stopping was that it was shown to me that every time I tripped I was just escaping [for lack of a better word] my responsibilities toward achieving my goals. Every time I would trip, I would think about how I could be out networking, finding new clients, finding new studio owners to give my resume to, etc. I never seemed to be having enlightening experiences anymore... they were all about just partying and feeling good. There's nothing wrong with that, at all. But for me, as a self-imposed rule, drugs are not to be used for that purpose. At least, not more than every once in a while. When that "spirit" appeared to me in my mind's eye, on that 4-aco-dmt trip, I was basically shown how if I stop using psychedelics as a distraction, my career will take off like a rocket, because I already have the skills and the mindset that I was shooting for when I began incorporating psychedelics into my Who-I-Am. It was like watching the same reruns of my favorite TV show, over and over again, and I want to stop watching it while I still have an appreciation for it.
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Funny though that I was just thinking about this as I clicked into here. Even if this post is months old, it speaks to me now for the first time. It's so very true with myself as well. I spend entirely too much time with this stuff, and it's not like I don't have a million things I could be doing :\

Note that I'm not suggesting I stop modding here. I just need to stop focusing on it all so much.
 
well sorry for the bump.. :\ (to those who thought church was back to say hi)
he had a good vibe <3 , i just miss the guy
and wanted to share
 
I think we all miss Church. He is definitely one of my favorite people, online or otherwise. And as much as I miss him here, I also commend him for actually leaving and sticking to it.
 
Xorkoth said:
I just need to stop focusing on it all so much.
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Aye sir. I just did that... a great few weeks away from home on a long holiday and no drugs used or even many thoughts about them. And that's not just psychedelics but the lot... alcohol, caffeine, tobacco, uppers, downers... the lot. It's been great. The real test comes now that I am back home. How I am going to keep myself from spending all my time reading about and talking about drugs on BL when I am not doing them... But I will give it a try. This is not to say I am turning my back on them all, hehe, far from it - except tobacco. They deserve their rightful place in my life, but I want to keep them in perspective.

true about what ninjadanslarbretabar said about old church: he did have a wonderful vibe and is greatly missed :)
 
^^ Wow, I was JUST thinking about you and wondering when you'd be back! :)

Glad to hear you had a good break... I hope mine is as nice. I am sure it will be once I get over the initial shit-storm. I do wish I had a nice vacation to take now. Unfortunately, I don't. But I've got a lot to keep me busy if I don't neglect it and sit around in gloom.

Church's words always left my heart glowing. He's one of those guys who really communicates through writing.
 
When that "spirit" appeared to me in my mind's eye, on that 4-aco-dmt trip, I was basically shown how if I stop using psychedelics as a distraction, my career will take off like a rocket
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Thats funny- I got the message that the CAREER thing was the distraction.
 
Good for you Ximot!

I'm very happy for you, and I figure you have what it takes to get on with it.

Part of the reason I moved to another continent was to get myself away from drugs. So far, it has been working half-and-half... I managed to quell my dependency on benzos, but at the price of increased alcohol consumption (although not too increased).
 
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