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ashleyb

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Hey everybody! I live in Texas, I'm really shy, right wing, I love guns and I don't recycle. I was clean for 4 years but then started using heroin and iv powder again a few months ago. I've pretty much just been lurking and reading about crack, which I got into because it's the easiest thing to get in my neighborhood. I'm too lazy to drive across town to get anything else, even if I'd rather not waste my money on this bullshit crack...especially since I haven't exactly mastered smoking it yet.
 
Crack is a bore. I'd say head out to the other side of town if better things await that way. But that's just me.

Welcome to Bluelight :)
 
Thanks :D

That's the problem...I know it's a waste of time and money and I almost talk myself out of getting more every time but then ultimately I end up in this ridiculous frenzy to get ahold of my guy. It's become part of my routine and I have a really hard time making changes and adjusting. It's so much harder to quit this time around. When I got clean five years ago I just couldn't take the life I was living anymore. Today it's so much harder - I feel like back then I knew that things could be better for me and I knew I'd never have the things I wanted out of life if I kept on like that. Now I just don't give a shit and feel like I'll never have those things anyway...which is compounded by the fact that I'm dealing with mental/emotional issues at the same time.
 
^ I would check out The Dark Side forum - it could really help :)

For basic HR questions check out BDD (my forum woo!) - everyone is encouraged to start their own thread on any HR topic (excluding psychs, cannabis and mdma) and we will always reply, even if it is just pointing you in another direction. Enjoy :)
 
Thanks for the advice effie. After checking out the BDD archive I found everything I was looking for...so I'm glad I actually took the time to search!
 
^ excellent to hear! :D

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