uvbnstacked
Greenlighter
Hey everyone. Im new here although ive been reading f off and on for a couple years. I am 22, and dont use much right now but i definitely have an addictive personality. when i was 19 I used DXM a couple times a week, sometimes more, for about a year. It kinda sucks, as i feel that was a critical moment in my life to do something helpful for my future but no, i just numbed myself.
That progressed into Diphenhydramine. 600-1000 mgs 4-5 times a week sometimes 2 doses a day. It got to a point where it wasnt even fun and i was still helplessly taking it for months. I think that has ran its course, although i still probably use a couple times a month. I also smoke weed a lot.
I started a job that requires my mental attention and was important for me. I really wanted to function normally, for my confidence. I think ive had a bit of success.
The main reason I joined is because of my girlfriend. we have been together almost 2 years and about a year ago she began using heroin. She is a twin and has an older sister that both used before her, both with legal issues regarding H. When we first got together i think everything was really well. about a year in i noticed that she would lie to me about really little things, where she was, what she was doing, when shed come over. there would be long irregular lapses of time where i couldnt get a hold of her, aside from a few text spread out. Her sex drive has went down a lot (seems she only wants to have sex when i am irritated), i see her acting out of it and somewhat irratic. Pin sized pupils. texts on her phone asking her to get money to pick up, come over for a surprise, come over for "hakuna matata". She hasnt had her period in 2 months (although i could be wrong).
She admitted it to me yesterday, after lying for so long. I told her i would do my best to make her not regret telling me about it. I know it was really hard for her to tell me. Problem is, I dont know what to do. Ive been driving myself crazy about this, because i knew. times where i felt i needed her and she would blow me off for heroin. it really sucks. i dont know how far in she is, if shes dependent ect. I dont know if she wants to stop, and i dont know if she can stop.
Anyways thats a little background on me. see you all around
That progressed into Diphenhydramine. 600-1000 mgs 4-5 times a week sometimes 2 doses a day. It got to a point where it wasnt even fun and i was still helplessly taking it for months. I think that has ran its course, although i still probably use a couple times a month. I also smoke weed a lot.
I started a job that requires my mental attention and was important for me. I really wanted to function normally, for my confidence. I think ive had a bit of success.
The main reason I joined is because of my girlfriend. we have been together almost 2 years and about a year ago she began using heroin. She is a twin and has an older sister that both used before her, both with legal issues regarding H. When we first got together i think everything was really well. about a year in i noticed that she would lie to me about really little things, where she was, what she was doing, when shed come over. there would be long irregular lapses of time where i couldnt get a hold of her, aside from a few text spread out. Her sex drive has went down a lot (seems she only wants to have sex when i am irritated), i see her acting out of it and somewhat irratic. Pin sized pupils. texts on her phone asking her to get money to pick up, come over for a surprise, come over for "hakuna matata". She hasnt had her period in 2 months (although i could be wrong).
She admitted it to me yesterday, after lying for so long. I told her i would do my best to make her not regret telling me about it. I know it was really hard for her to tell me. Problem is, I dont know what to do. Ive been driving myself crazy about this, because i knew. times where i felt i needed her and she would blow me off for heroin. it really sucks. i dont know how far in she is, if shes dependent ect. I dont know if she wants to stop, and i dont know if she can stop.
Anyways thats a little background on me. see you all around
