Hi. I'm fairly new here. Have been hoovering around reading bits and pieces for awhile and finally registered. Have been in recovery from Alcohol for just over 6 years now. My partner who I've been with for 7 years was a recovering heroin addict when we met so it helped me stay off everything as he wasnt using/drinking himself. In 2017 he slowly relapsed, he thought I didn't know but you cant kid a kidder!!! Well it obviously escalated and unfortunately I too started using. Not heroin but cocaine. Eventually ended up injecting which I never thought I'd do. January of this year I had a pretty major overdose. I had a fit, stopped breathing. Had to have mouth to mouth by my partner ect. Scary stuff but I refused to go to hospital when the ambulance arrived as didn't want it to be known why I had fitted. It scared me enough to drastically cut down and my partner did too. However he is on a subutex script and has been for years. This has never been of interest to me until after my fit when he suggested to me it might help stop any cravings for coke j may have and just chill me out abit. Only did it occasionally but you guessed it. It's now a full habit! I have been having 14mg a day for quite few months and have reduced to 8mg a day but finding it hard. Its obviously not something I can easily get hold of either just through my partner. Is there anything I can do or take to get me off it? Apart from cold turkey. I'm reluctant to goto Addaction as they will stop my partners script as they will know I've got it from him. Any help would be appreciated. ?