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Heroin?

Biggie you're starting to worry me. Here's my tale of heroin. Tried it first at the age of 18 in Prague (a photo of me doing it ended up in some art student friends end of year show, thanks Hana!). I didn't get hooked (quite a commute from london to Prague!) Years later, things changed, as they tend to do! Most heroin users have a supplier or in mine and most people's cases a LOT of suppliers.

Recently someone was desperate to try it (was in a hell of a state) and I got them some and was immediately hit up for dealers numbers. Once, you might be ok, I was. But you get a taste and once you got a habit, game over until you work out your exit plan (subs or the dreaded meth). I'm not going to lie to you, you can try it once and be fine, most of my closest friends have and didn't get bitten. But biggie is it worth the risk? The high isn't the best (never IVed) but its does relax you. I'm not going to tell you to try it once (been there and had to seek legal advice long story not directed at anyone) as I don't know you're make up. Lads holiday in Prague got me started 12 years ago, I was the only casualty out of 6 of us that did it. And that only kicked in 6 years later. A nasty insidious drug that will replace every other source of joy in your life. Woohoo have fun with that fella x
 
i actively started using it when i could when my life was falling apart for mental health/lack of support issues. i was never really dedicated to it other than an impassioned chipper who only shot myself up a few times (could always find another junkie). it was really a symptom of a greater cause, but i got effectively black mailed into completely scapegoating my substance abuse in exchange for stability (an offer that wouldn't even prove to be good) and now that is always on my record. i was just a chipper, and i think the only issue would be if an old junkie friend was right in front of me with it and offered. even then, i wouldn't care beyond doing it that one time. it is just that one time that is really kind of scary enough in my mind. like bungee jumping or something. i never had a straight connect for myself. i have no experience with trying to maintain a normal life with it, because for me it was just a way to deal with not having one.
i can tell you that trying to deal with heroin without a normal life there in the first place was a very quick way to almost kill myself many times.
lol @ falling out in a mcdonalds bathroom. real talk =|
 
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Captain.Heroin said:
Never happened to me.

Heroin addiction is definitely not worth it though, it's never going to end well.
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Well Ive never tried heroin but i have been addicted to oxycodone, morphine (both oral and IV), hydromorphone (IV)and fentanyl. Out of all the opiates/opioids Ive taken only Darvon (propoxyphene), Tramadol and Demerol (meperidine/pethidine) fucked up my sex drive but those are all shit anyway. Taking morphine and hydromorphone in high doses does make it harder to orgasm but i still have no trouble getting it up. Marathon sex sessions can be both awesome and annoying at times.

Also i have to agree with everyone here saying that nothing good will come of using heroin. There is nothing fun about waking up sick everyday believe me :|
 
paranoid android said:
Marathon sex sessions can be both awesome and annoying at times.
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Yeah its awesome to feel like a porn star but hours later when you're dripping sweat you're exhausted and you just kind of collapse and give in to the fact that you're not getting off it isn't so awesome anymore lol
 
^ so true or the guy is struggling to stay hard just wishing he could get off and dripping sweat on you its not always fun ...
ewww not the best memory
also if you want any semi decent person in your life to eventually turn their back on you because they dont want to be around someone who shoots heroin then yah sure do it
and if you do find people that also do it its worse in some ways i have had two friends fatally overdose and one friend shoot himself presumably due to his iv heroin addiction
i myself have stopped breathing (was given mouth to mouth)
also if having explosive diarrhea in a disgusting gas station bathroom where the only toilet paper is a little piece on the floor... because you are MILDLY dope sick by the time your dealer is able to meet you sounds fun go for it (true story)
 
I've lost 3 friends in the last week from overdoses. IT WILL FUCKING KILL YOU. Believe me when I fucked with dope; I've seen people get shot. I done been shot at 5 or 6 timed. Pistol whipped. Beaten by the cops. Been at the business end of a .40 cal.
You want none of this world dude. Fuckin believe me.
I worked a corporate job during some of this shit too. Copping in the parking lot, speedballing in the fucking bathroom and going back to work were common occurances. I would work the whole week without sleep half the time. I do not play.
 
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Wow...
Thanks guys. This seems like something I really don't want to fuck with. I've only dealt with Oxy's and Kratom and I think it's best to just leave some shit alone or it will bite me in the ass.
 
Biggie92 said:
Wow...
Thanks guys. This seems like something I really don't want to fuck with. I've only dealt with Oxy's and Kratom and I think it's best to just leave some shit alone or it will bite me in the ass.
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Wise choice Biggie. A tiny percentage of people who try heroin can use it recreation ally, another small percentage don't enjoy the effects of the drug and the rest of us like it so much that we can't stop using it and consequentially end up physically dependant. After that, life accelerates down hill in a hurry until you destroy every molecule of every positive and good thing in your life.

Also, a heroin habit sneaks up on you like a thief in the shadows - a lot of us addicts started out chipping (using occasionally, so as not to become dependant) and even managing that pattern of use for years without a problem.

But one day you will wake up sick, it *is* inevitable, and thus begins your journey on the rickety heroin train that goes up and over a hill to a shit town you don't wanna leave.

A. <3
 
Ashley said:
Wise choice Biggie. A tiny percentage of people who try heroin can use it recreation ally, another small percentage don't enjoy the effects of the drug and the rest of us like it so much that we can't stop using it and consequentially end up physically dependant. After that, life accelerates down hill in a hurry until you destroy every molecule of every positive and good thing in your life.

Also, a heroin habit sneaks up on you like a thief in the shadows - a lot of us addicts started out chipping (using occasionally, so as not to become dependant) and even managing that pattern of use for years without a problem.

But one day you will wake up sick, it *is* inevitable, and thus begins your journey on the rickety heroin train that goes up and over a hill to a shit town you don't wanna leave.

A. <3
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^^^this. A habit does sneak up on you. Just started digging out of a three year addiction myself. The collateral damage and carnage my wife and I have wreaked has been great (as in huge, not as in fun.) It will take over your life so that the insane shit you do for dope on a regular basis will seem normal. It's messed up.
 
just quit the dope. been off it for 10 days, finally starting to feel normal (not like shit)..

My girlfriend of 7 months , which i believe is my true soul mate , has been ripped away from me. I told her that I was using dope. She was mad , but then called me 3 days later and said we can work things out .

In a state of withdrawal that I would not wish upon ANYONE, I drank an entire handle of 10$ vodka. I cheated on my girlfriend , and she found out.

I am not the type to cheat. I was blacked out, and woke up in bed butt naked with this horrendous looking thing next to me... I am by no means excusing my actions, just saying, I would not have blacked out and fucked that girl if I had not frantically blacked myself out to get some sleep (my true intentions ahh ) :(

My girlfriend read my phone and put 2+2 together, which forced me to tell her about my drunken stupidity. Me being scared and stupid did not want to tell her about it, so she found out for herself.

Now I am 3 states away in my home town, about to go to a 6 month program. The fucked up thing about all of this is that now my girlfriend wants to still be with me, but I am going to have to go into a 6 month non-communication rehabilitation and be wondering what the fucks going to happen. (she is only forgiving me because she cheated on me early in the relationship, but has been devoted since) If i lose her , then so be it , i probably deserve it.

For every high, there is an equal and opposite low. I have abused every drug besides crack and meth, and NO drug has made me lose everything that I love so quickly like heroin. In 3 months of using, I went from having a job, having the most beautiful girl of my dreams, buying her shit, being happy,

to me lying, pawning, stealing, no job, no girlfriend, back to rehab; all in 3 months time.

Think of it this way. There is no high that is like heroin. If you really dance with her, shes gonna eventually eat you alive and make you wish you never met her. But the sad part about all of it, is she was so sexy, such a good dancer, and when the times were good, they were the best. You will always want her. Heroin is that girlfriend who all your friends say to run the hell away from, and you KNOW you should, but you cant stop dreaming about her.
 
Biggie92 said:
Wow...
Thanks guys. This seems like something I really don't want to fuck with. I've only dealt with Oxy's and Kratom and I think it's best to just leave some shit alone or it will bite me in the ass.
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Props to you. Addicts like myself knew entirely (well not nearly entirley but) what I was getting into by fucking with this drug.

Really, my hats off to you , learning from other peoples mistakes. Seems like I have to teach myself these godforsaken lessons.
 
tackyspiral said:
captaincave ... IMO its a whole different and much more ferocious monster when you iv heroin vs smoke/snort
captainheroin... i didnt lose my sex drive either just my ability to orgasm while using (female perspective)

i think i was able to kind of keep a habit going because whenever i didnt have dope i always had suboxone (prescribed)
however after a certain point even if you take a suboxone you still get pretty sick (but not near as sickas you would have gotten)

note - i am clean now and so far doin pretty good :)
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Totally agree that it's a different game IVing them smoking. I would get through 2 bags in the morning and 4 at night but shooting ain't for me. Knowing one that does it, it totally screwed him big time. Not going to try just to see the differnence though!
 
Think of it this way. There is no high that is like heroin. If you really dance with her, shes gonna eventually eat you alive and make you wish you never met her. But the sad part about all of it, is she was so sexy, such a good dancer, and when the times were good, they were the best. You will always want her. Heroin is that girlfriend who all your friends say to run the hell away from, and you KNOW you should, but you cant stop dreaming about her.
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That is perfect
 
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