hahah funny shit. My friends went in there and at first i think they thought he had diabetes but then when my other friend asked they knew what was up and the dirty looks started.
-
The Dark Side 💕 Welcome Guest 💕
Posting Rules Bluelight Rules Notable Threads Urgent Hotlines Bereavement Mindfulness Suicide Support Anger Management -
TDS Moderators: AlphaMethylPhenyl | paranoid android
Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!
- Thread starter chicpoena
- Start date
- Status
hahah funny shit. My friends went in there and at first i think they thought he had diabetes but then when my other friend asked they knew what was up and the dirty looks started.
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
Sit back, enjoy the ride, and hope you don't die. Your boss doesn't know anything you don't tell him/her. Just make up some stupid excuse about how you've been feeling kinda sick and you had troubles sleeping last night, so you feel like shit and you're tired. As far as coming down... good luck.
Hey guys, I'm "back" now.
My issue was that my boss DOES know that I'm trying to rehab it up and she is a former addict herself (though to meth). She's my mom's best friend and I watch her kids. She also knows my mom has been thinking I am using again since I got that nasty bronchitis this week.
Luckily I sobered up enough before the dad came home and my dad was home early so he came to pick me up instead of me sitting around and trying to converse with him for 3 hours.
Carl Landrover
Bluelighter
Is it possible to build a tolerance to the WD phase or is it that you just get used to being in/dealing with WD? Or is that pretty the same thing?
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
I don't think so, some people never get used to it even though they do it multiple times a month for years.
Some people also never get wds that bad. I'm kinda lucky this way. Other than getting precipitated wds from accidentally taking a naltrexone after having used a few hours before, I've never really had terrible wds. Although, come to think of it, I've almost always had subs when I've needed them. So, maybe scratch that?
Some people also never get wds that bad. I'm kinda lucky this way. Other than getting precipitated wds from accidentally taking a naltrexone after having used a few hours before, I've never really had terrible wds. Although, come to think of it, I've almost always had subs when I've needed them. So, maybe scratch that?
4EverTweakin
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Aug 16, 2006
- Messages
- 340
Yeah, I'd say scratch that. Depending on usage, of course, but realistically if you're a daily user or thereabout - Prepare to feel the PAIN!
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
Well, I did come off my heaviest use ever without any detox meds even though I was IN a detox.
I had been using between 5 and 13 bags a day for a little over a month, plus benzos and coke and mdma, and adderall.
On NYE I OD'd by talking most of those together at insane levels, but when I went to the hospital my urine and blood came back clean. They thought I was just suicidal and crying for attention so they put me in the suicide floor with no meds. I think the large amount of benzos helped the wds in part though becuase I don't remember any of the first 2-3 days.
-Guido-
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Nov 1, 2004
- Messages
- 34,832
You get used to being miserable, that is until one day you just fucking snap from it all.
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
feels worse when you run out, to me at least, because then I start remembering how temporary the high is.
Note that not everyone becomes physically addicted to opiates.
If you have a family history of drug/alcohol addiction, then chances are that you too will also become addicted if you use.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
Note that not everyone becomes physically addicted to opiates.
If you have a family history of drug/alcohol addiction, then chances are that you too will also become addicted if you use.
IDK if this is true, but I've read that if your parent was an addict, you are not only more likely to become addicted, but are also more likely to become addicted to their opposite DOC. Like, my biological father (who I never knew was an addict until after I went to rehab twice since I never ever met him) was a coke-head, but I chose junk.
Anyone else hear this?
Draigan
Ex-Bluelighter
My little cuzin had a father who was a junkie and a mother a crackhead, he doesn't want either drugs, but he does other drugs sometimes. I guess it can just become such a turn-off.
Interesting...But I have never heard of anyone trying smack that didnt report loving it. To me it was like what I had been wanting my whole life. Puts me in the garden of eden gorging myself on the forbidden fruit.
Last edited:
Carl Landrover
Bluelighter
I've never really heard that, but I've wondered something similar from various anecdotes.
My real father was a real big coke addict, was why my parents divorced shortly after as I was born. He was uppers, I'm downers.
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
Interesting...But I have never heard of anyone trying smack that didnt report loving it. To me it was like what I had been wanting my whole life. Puts me in the garden of eden gorging myself on the forbidden fruit.
LOL, idk if you are kidding, but look around BL, there are plenty of people who don't like smack.
Actually, a lot of times it does seem like if you like the uppers you don't like the downers and vice versa.
I've never met a stimulant I liked, but I've never met a opi I didn't
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
It's so weird how similar our lives are--even things like coke-head bio-daddies.
I wanted to put some kind of emoticon dude there, but I didn't see one that was appropriate, so you fill in the blank!
xxkcxx
Bluelighter
I seem to be monopolizing this thread lately...
I've been doing dope pretty much everyday for a month straight and today I am done. No chance of getting more until at least monday (and I really can't because I have probation Monday anyway).
I feel like shit though. Not really physically, because I do have plenty of subxone, but mentally I'm crashing HARD. I always feel so guilty when I have to come of heroin and the only thing that makes me not feel it is MORE heroin. So, not an option right now.
I know it is all temporary, but I'm stuck between wishing I had no responsibility and could just use as much and whenever I want and wishing that I never wanted to use again.
I've been doing dope pretty much everyday for a month straight and today I am done. No chance of getting more until at least monday (and I really can't because I have probation Monday anyway).
I feel like shit though. Not really physically, because I do have plenty of subxone, but mentally I'm crashing HARD. I always feel so guilty when I have to come of heroin and the only thing that makes me not feel it is MORE heroin. So, not an option right now.
I know it is all temporary, but I'm stuck between wishing I had no responsibility and could just use as much and whenever I want and wishing that I never wanted to use again.
Acid Eiffel
Bluelight Crew
i think H is boring. plus it makes me sick to my stomach and the next day, im queasy all day.
i think im just really sensitive to opiates though. i like Oxys, but only cause i can regulate it a lot better than dope. but even at my heaviest usage, i was snorting maybe 80mg/day.
hell, i can't take more than two vikes at a time or else i'll puke!
Carl Landrover
Bluelighter
Sounds like the majority of my days lately.
I wrote a post on the talk to yourself thread in the lounge last night, and I meant to write something here, since it would be more appropriate here. I was nodding way too hard last night to focus.
I'm taking a break from BL. It's not going to solve anything, but I'd like to think I'd think about drugs a little less.
I'm tired of coming on here and bitching about how I want to stop, then just going out and using. I really have a problem and I'm really having difficulty in stopping.
I just want to thank everyone for any advice/kind words that have helped me out in the last couple of months.
I hope you all can find the happiness you're looking for.I know I'm not going to find it in dope, I just have to cut it and other opiates/opioids out for a while and get my head back on straight so I can find that happiness once again.
Shortly before the initial relapse that has lead me to where I am today, I remember thinking that it was the happiest I'd been in a long time. It was a sober happy too.
I miss that and I hope to feel it one day again.Good luck everyone, much love. I'll be back eventually, hopefully sober....'with God's help I'll conquer this terrible affliction'.
- Status