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Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!

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Thanks everyone for the help.

Im still using but im going to try and get it down to dosing once a day instead of twice and only ever 80mg instead of the 120+mg I sometimes treat myself to. I still cant stop throwing food up though, sometimes if I smoke enough pot I can keep food down but thats really the only way I can do it. Ive been drinking "up & go" which is like liquid breakfast, so probably similar to what your suggesting DW. My mum knows how bad its getting which is a really good thing, shes helping a ton and taking me out places, keeping my mind busy and such.

BTW drug_wench, stay strong and keep away from that smack and oxy. Its probably not such a good idea to be communicating with this friend if shes offering you oxy and smack, true?

I had these dreams last night which really scared me. I dreamt visions of what hell is like and god was telling me that this is where ill end up if I dont put my life to good use and do what I was put here to do. It scared the shit outta me and considering I dont even believe in hell I dont know what to think, but im going to use it and make myself believe that thats where im going if I dont get myself sorted.

I keep saying im going to do a bupe taper program but I never get to doing it. If im not doing better by next week im just going to put myself in detox.
 
the_ketaman said:
I keep saying im going to do a bupe taper program but I never get to doing it. If im not doing better by next week im just going to put myself in detox.
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Have you ever done a complete inpatient program before?

If not (hell even if so), I recommend going in for the whole inpatient treatment rather than just a detox protocol...if you're willing to do one, might as well increase your odds of getting clean and staying clean by going all the way.

It doesn't work for everyone but the fact that it does work for some should make it worth a try!
 
gd luck with wat u do choose to do, ketaman - if u do do detox, if its anything like here they make it as comfortable as possible for u
and eons right about rehab - its probly the best way to go.....it does work for a hell of a lot of ppl
can u afford to go to detox/rehab?
and yea i get ur advice on not going near my friend, i just tend to b a bit self-destructive that way
the trouble is shes got a court case coming up next month and it really looks like she cud end up in jail....and shes my best friend so im trying to see as much of her as poss :\
atm my mums taking time off work to kind of nurse me thru the benzo withdrawals until my place comes up in detox so it doesnt really matter if my mate comes over
i hav set the boundaries with myself that i cant go to her apartment cos shes living with a drug dealer and right now i wud give my left arm for something sedating
go figure, im in benzo withdrawal but im craving junk not benzos.....weird
i guess i just want that rush back but to feel soothed at the same time :(
 
ok so im looking to start suboxone... what should i do i dont want my rentals to know im getting a "heroin withdrawl pill"...i take oxy,hydro,everything codone morphone...anything thats an opiate ill take...noww, i cant even get high off opiates (i do not do H,never have)...takes me about 200mg to get as high as i did when i used to take just 15mgs...prett ymuch i cant afford it and i feel as my life is crashing in a way but i no its not....how can i get suboxone without my parents finding out, and is it easy to get presciibed?
 
2 Days no opiates......after taking 2 OC 40's thursday with a xanax, and having a great time, I dosed 120mg of hydro (cwe'd of course) friday, and barely caught a buzz....so at the moment its time for a break, which is good because I have no money, and no sources atm. This mindset will probably change tuesday or wednesday, when I get payed, and my sources get new scripts filled. I could use, I have a 3mg vial of Hydromorphone and a spike in my room, but remembering that weekened I stayed fucked up off of IV hydromorphone is keeping my from it. I thought the cravings for coke were bad, opiates are so much more insidious because I can function and talk to people on them, and I can sleep after taking them, and there isn't a 'comedown' so to speak, at least one like on coke. So far I keep dodging the bullet on withdrawls but I know thats not going to last forevor. I was doing better last month hadn't used at all, but after getting randomly left by my girl for her ex, some bullshit at home and work, I used a few times, and am back to my one day on two days off bullshit.

^sorry for rambling
 
Yea call every single sub dr in the area to find the cheapest one. You would be surprised how much the price can vary dr to dr. Some i know of charge over 400$ for the initial visit alone. Look for dr's who are actually in it to help ppl and not just to turn a profit on addiction. My dr is semi retired and very caring, she was also several hundred less expensive than the other dr's in the area. So yeah, def shop around before you commit to one to find the best price.

edit, i just saw you are in NJ, there should be a ton of sub dr's in the area. Any city where heroin is big you can bet there will be no short supply of bupe dr's. good luck to you.
 
Thanks you for your information...haha yeah...right by good ol Paterson....Oxys recently became a HUGE thing in the berbs..they all pay mad loot for an 80....well man i aint got no money for that...i mean if my withdrawls get terrible id say somethnig to my rentals which would be very embarissing...ive got 8 Vike ES's that should last me til tomorrow night..taking 1 for reeasons of diarea...WITHdrAWLS SUCK...anyone who isnt addicted and might think they leadin to it, take a break, do a favor...
 
PillPoppingAnimal said:
anyone who isnt addicted and might think they leadin to it, take a break, do a favor...
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Wish I could but I keep telling myself, at least I'm not doing coke or meth like back in the day.:\
 
7orp0r said:
Wish I could but I keep telling myself, at least I'm not doing coke or meth like back in the day.:\
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That isn't going to work man. One drug might take you down the hellhole of addiction faster than another, but either way you're going to wind up there eventually...
 
eon_blue said:
That isn't going to work man. One drug might take you down the hellhole of addiction faster than another, but either way you're going to wind up there eventually...
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Yeah man, I know, I seem to have stabilized my use to pay day and Friday, with the occaisional extra day or two if I hit overtime on my check. Experienced slight physical withdrawls this summer when I had no pattern to my use, and thats why made me come up with this 'schedule' if you will.

I guess I keep telling myself its ok, because I'm making A's in my classes and working 30-45 hours a week and making all my bills, but I still know I need to slow down, esp as the price of pharms keeps going up in my area. Cost more than anything else may be the thing that helps me stop opiates.

I don't know how to explain it, but my opiate problem seems infinately easier to manage than my former 8-ball a day coke habit I had through my senior year of high school. Most likely because I can still function on opiates, whereas I would get so geeked on powder I could barely do anything except more.

edit: there I go again with more justification of my abuse.
 
7orp0r said:
I guess I keep telling myself its ok, because I'm making A's in my classes and working 30-45 hours a week and making all my bills, but I still know I need to slow down, esp as the price of pharms keeps going up in my area. Cost more than anything else may be the thing that helps me stop opiates.
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I can totally relate to you because I too was a high functioning opiate addict. Being successful while being addicted makes it that much easier to justify.

7orp0r said:
I don't know how to explain it, but my opiate problem seems infinately easier to manage than my former 8-ball a day coke habit I had through my senior year of high school. Most likely because I can still function on opiates, whereas I would get so geeked on powder I could barely do anything except more.
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That's because, and this is just my opinion, opiate addictions are more managable for most people than stimulant addictions. My friend A who was both a cocaine addict and an adderall addict dropped out of school after using for only 6 months. Me, and a few other friends who were opiate addicts, all graduated. Stimulant addiction just seems to wear people out a lot faster than opiate addiction. Stimulants seem to be a lot harder on your mind too.
 
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chicpoena said:
That's because, and this is just my opinion, opiate addictions are more managable for most people than stimulant addictions. My friend A who was both a cocaine addict and an adderall addict dropped out of school after using for only 6 months. Me, and a few other friends who were opiate addicts, all graduated. Stimulant addiction just seems to wear people out a lot faster than opiate addiction. It's a lot harder on your mind too.
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Makes sense to me...when I was doing coke I had just started at Clemson University, I didn't even make it halfway through the semester before I dropped, staying up all night doing coke, and dragging myself to school the next day just didn't work, I remember just how awful I felt. Fast forward to now where I'm at the local technical college, and I have no problem getting up at 7 and going to school, because while at school and work, my mind and body are flying, I get home and like to slow them down, whereas in the past, I just stayed flying all day sometimes for a few days on end, until I would crash, and lose 24 hours or more to sleep.
 
I think they had some study somewhere where the lab rat could press a lever for say, heroin, or one for water, and one for food. The rat pressed all three -regularly dosing himself with H, but also eating and drinking.

They did this with coke and speed, however, and the rats stopped pressing the food and water levers pretty quickly, just taking more and more of the stims until, i don't know, they spun around their little treadmills too fast and fell off and died or something.

Real studies. Making a joke, but the NIH really did research and found that. I'm too lazy to find the link but it's google-able.
 
skiptown7 said:
I think they had some study somewhere where the lab rat could press a lever for say, heroin, or one for water, and one for food. The rat pressed all three -regularly dosing himself with H, but also eating and drinking.

They did this with coke and speed, however, and the rats stopped pressing the food and water levers pretty quickly, just taking more and more of the stims until, i don't know, they spun around their little treadmills too fast and fell off and died or something.

Real studies. Making a joke, but the NIH really did research and found that. I'm too lazy to find the link but it's google-able.
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I think this study has been done lots of times. They all basically say that opiate addicted rats still met their basic needs to stay alive, whereas stimulant addicted rats neglected their basic needs to the point of starving to death. Stimulants are appetite suppressants though so its not really fair to say that the rats were consciously neglecting eating and drinking. Overall though it sounds a lot like addiction in humans too.
 
i go to a pychiatrist already, theres a sub doctor in the same building but probably mad loot...my guy already pescribes me valium...u think if i told him i needed help hed prescrib me somethnig (he is not a suub doctor)...i was thinking tramadol cuz people use that for depression
 
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