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Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!

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umm, tell him to give you your f'n computer back....

9 weeks?!? get over it live on, this may sound cruel but, this supposed friend, watch him suffer as you have chosen not too. it will teach the both of you a lesson.

he is taking advantage of you and your family.
 
panic in paradise said:
umm, tell him to give you your f'n computer back....

9 weeks?!? get over it live on, this may sound cruel but, this supposed friend, watch him suffer as you have chosen not too. it will teach the both of you a lesson.

he is taking advantage of you and your family.
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I agree, 9 weeks is quite a bit of clean time, but telling someone to GET OVER IT is very ignorant. While physical w/d might be gone, this person could be suffering from post acute withdrawal sx. (PAWS.)

I am an IV heroin addict, I feel you pain and know that one cannot simply "get over it."
 
estrelladelmar said:
I agree, 9 weeks is quite a bit of clean time, but telling someone to GET OVER IT is very ignorant. While physical w/d might be gone, this person could be suffering from post acute withdrawal sx. (PAWS.)

I am an IV heroin addict, I feel you pain and know that one cannot simply "get over it."
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Yeah i agree, I've physically withdrawled for a total of probably 8 months out of my 22 year lifetime.. and no combination of physical symptoms holds a candle to the mental damage it's caused. They will stay with me for the rest of my life. Not to mention that 9 weeks sobriety (after a period of heavy dependence) i typically still can only sleep 4 hours max without being comatosed on benzo's. After 12 weeks i find only mental symptoms linger.

And, xxkcxx, as for being able to control your use to once in a while, IME, impossible. I find that once you do break the "addiction threshold" once, the possibility of occasional recreational use is out the window. Thats me though. Everybodies different.
 
Hey I am on 100ML Methadone a day and have just been told i have Liver Cancer I have Some Fast Acting 10MG Morphine Pills(Blue) which i gather i can crush and get a "FiX" from but how many Pills should i use? I am 170LBS and like i said i take 100ML of Methadone a day as well as 2 100MG(I Know they are 100`s but MG`s or ML`s I do not know the proper termanolgy)
Also how much water should i use. I have been diagnosed with Terminal Cancer but i do not want to go too soon as life is still worth living. 10 years back i was doing a Point of H a day to keep my Muscle Spams at bay.(I am Also a Parapelgic from a motorcycle accident. From way back in 89.
First off i was smoking pot to combat the spasms.....Until i found out that Opoites did a MUCH better Job and the nice warm feeling was a Bonus. After a couple of years on it though i was tired of always being Broke and the "Crowd" that comes with Heroin use (You would be Surprised at how many people will take advantage of a guy in a wheelchair) Then again i had a lot of people help me out because of being in a chair. Anyways I figured i got a dam good reason to "Take a Break" I just don`t want to be taking too much of one if ya know what i mean

Regards

Mal
 
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sorry to hear that mate - u might actually get some better answers if u post a thread in OD
this is more focussed on supporting addicts
gd luck eh
 
Wow, the cancer is terminal? I'm really sorry about that, dude. Hopefully things work out for you though...more than one person in my family/close circle of friends has been told they have "terminal" cancer and are now in remission. Never let anyone tell you when you will die...keep fighting.

What are you on the methadone for? A former addiction or pain from the cancer? You're tolerance will effect how much you should take.
 
NewbieMibles said:
Hey I am on 100ML Methadone a day and have just been told i have Liver Cancer I have Some Fast Acting 10MG Morphine Pills(Blue) which i gather i can crush and get a "FiX" from but how many Pills should i use? I am 170LBS and like i said i take 100ML of Methadone a day as well as 2 100MG(I Know they are 100`s but MG`s or ML`s I do not know the proper termanolgy)
Also how much water should i use. I have been diagnosed with Terminal Cancer but i do not want to go too soon as life is still worth living. 10 years back i was doing a Point of H a day to keep my Muscle Spams at bay.(I am Also a Parapelgic from a motorcycle accident. From way back in 89.
First off i was smoking pot to combat the spasms.....Until i found out that Opoites did a MUCH better Job and the nice warm feeling was a Bonus. After a couple of years on it though i was tired of always being Broke and the "Crowd" that comes with Heroin use (You would be Surprised at how many people will take advantage of a guy in a wheelchair) Then again i had a lot of people help me out because of being in a chair. Anyways I figured i got a dam good reason to "Take a Break" I just don`t want to be taking too much of one if ya know what i mean

Regards

Mal
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I cannot express my sympathy with my limited knowledge of the english language for your said fate..
But I will need more info than "10mgblue morphine pills" before I can help you.
Dosent methadone block other opiates from crossing the bbb?
I need to know the name of the medication...ie; MScontin, dillaudid ect.
it may be Hydromorphone..if so then your in luck as they will dissolve readily in water with no hassle...get back to me if nobody else responds with helpfull info.
God be with you my friend.
 
6 Days clean from opiates, would be 9 but I bought an OC 80 on thanksgiving night. Didn't nod from it, which convinces me that, I need to take a break if for nothing else than to get my tolerance down.
 
I'm craving pretty bad right now.

I hope I can keep myself busy over the next few days so I don't have time to call up dope boy. At least he's not at my college right now or else it would be the matter of a 10 minute walk from campus...and I'm glad I don't know his guy(s) that are around campus (it's right on the city border).


At least now it's an 1:20 roundtrip of driving, plus meeting up with him and his guys down there. As we all know deals can take some time to go down, so that's a plus at least.
 
i8hooked said:
Are these prescribed meds? If so, i mean, you have to manage your pain. You cant sit and hurt because someone else thinks taking pills is unnacceptable.

The way I see it. Is When drugs cause you problems, then you have a drug problem. That codiene might be a little hard on the tummy for that long.
Not sure what your taking but if it be APAP, Ibuprofen or whatever then that is even worse.
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Not prescribed. I perform cold water extraction to remove most of the ibuprofen (use nurofen plus as OTC source)

The reason I keep falling back into addiction, is twofold..

my 'alone' activities. . mainly producing music. . are conducive to drug use. .

and secondly, I don't have anyone to do not-alone stuff with. apart from drug taking friends.
 
Carl Landrover said:
I'm craving pretty bad right now.

I hope I can keep myself busy over the next few days so I don't have time to call up dope boy. At least he's not at my college right now or else it would be the matter of a 10 minute walk from campus...and I'm glad I don't know his guy(s) that are around campus (it's right on the city border).


At least now it's an 1:20 roundtrip of driving, plus meeting up with him and his guys down there. As we all know deals can take some time to go down, so that's a plus at least.
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This just made me think of two different times dealing with this.

The first was a really realiable guy I had who would meet me off the highway. Me and two friends went at like 11 pm. We called him first and he said it was cool for us to come down, then we called him when we got there and he didn't pick up. After a half hour he finally answered and said he'd be there in 10 minutes. We know this means at least 25, but we waited another hour with him not answering his phone. No one else was answering at that point either, and it was too late and dangerous to go riding around that area of Chicago that late at night being white. He called the next day and apologized because he was drunk and fell asleep.


The second was that I called another guy around 12:30 am and he told me to come down. 30 minutes later, when I'm down there, he doesn't answer. I was just sitting in this gas station that was closed, but still had a worker in it for some reason, so I looked really suspect. I waited until 2 a.m. before I headed back after probably 30 calls to the dude. When I was 5 or 6 exits down the high way he calls and apologizes for falling asleep and tells me to turn around. I was hoping he would throw in a freebie or two, but I guess he figured it was favor enough to come out at 2:30 in the morning.
 
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I've had similar times like that. If you eventually get the dope, preferably earlier than later, it usually wasn't all bad.

It sucks when you're looking for it and you've already got the idea in mind and the guy on the phone saying it's good, but the deal never goes through. Then the day(s) after I still never satisfied that crave and it never really subsides.


I'm craving now, but I don't want it at the moment, as in I know it's not a good idea and not feasible. I'd like to think I will never use again, but I can't think about that right now, so I'm just focusing on the current moment.
 
Hey all! Just throwing my name on here. Was pills Percs and Soma for a few years then a heavy pod habit. On my 5th day of being sober! Its still a daily strugle. If i can help anyone anyway please let me know!

Z
 
i'm on 5 days clean from a daily heroin usage for the past 2 1/2 motnhs
i feel a little better, i just really want to be high though. it seems im only truly happy high on something (opiates are the best).
 
hey, i'm izzy, just checking in. i was born with a habit, struggled as long as i can remember, actually am amazed to still be around. i do the best i can but i still fall a lot. lots of bad has happened that's made me feel really closed and i don't let anyone see the whole picture. i don't like it when people go away, no matter how that may happen. guilt and loss and shame have taught me to keep some distance and keep the worst of me to myself. that sounds worse than it is. i actually have arrived at some amount of happiness in my life although i don't think too many would want to swap places. but in comparison to other times, now is OK. good things happen. i just had two bits of writing published in a small anthology. i have a few good people around me.
anyway, i'll quit babbling. good to be here.
thanks,
iz
 
today i gave him learning my co-worker could get oxy 80's. it just made me so happy i could get it, down goes another $50. i can support a heroin habit, but an oxy habit no way.
 
Ok, so for the last 20 months on Suboxone, I have been able to do heroin occasionally and get away with it. After a day or two run with it, I'd transition quite smoothly back to Suboxone. It would be painless and effortless.

But now, for some reason, it's not going as smooth. I did heroin one day (2 days ago) and have no desire to go back on Suboxone. Just the thought of taking Suboxone makes me cringe. I want to get more heroin and just keep going. Obviously, I can't, but I would looooove to. This is weird for me because usually, I really don't care that I can't do more H. I actually look forward to getting back on Suboxone, that's why I don't understand why it's different this time.

I'm almost out of Suboxone anyways. I have 6mg left, and when that's gone, it's gone for good. I am so unprepared. I was supposed to be tapering for the last 2 months, but I haven't. I've dropped my dose by maybe .5mg (from 2mg to 1.5mg).

I know I'm going to have two painful weeks coming up soon (which sucks because my birthday and christmas are coming and I do NOT want to be sick for either of them. Actually, I'll probably just get high on both days, but the days in between will still suck.)
 
How come you're out of sub then? Can you not get a script?

I'd try to not dose more than 1mg at a time now and work on stretching out the time between, if possible, if you really can't get any more suboxne.

What are your plans then? It seems like it would be easy for you to jump right back into heroin if you're going to be suddenly stopping like that. It ain't easy staying away, every week I say I'm done, but I just picked up again yesterday. :\


If I don't shape up and make some changes, I'm gonna hit a bottom soon and it ain't gonna be pretty. :( Hopefully it's nothing with my girlfriend....I don't know why I just don't stop, I've got so much to lose now. :\
 
Fuckin dopesick and suicidal as a result again. Whats this the forth time this year? Fuckin hell it never gets easier.

Guess it's clonazepam, seroquel and gabapentin till the end of the week.
 
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