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Heroin - IV/snort - very experienced. - I am heroin, and heroin is me.

freddy47 said:
^Yeah it will suck for awhile there's no denying that. I went cold turkey so I know how bad it can get. I've been clean for 6 months now. Just realize that at the worst point of withdrawal you are also at the closest point to being free from this burden. For the night is darkest just before the dawn my friend.
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Do you think going cold turkey decreases the chance of a relapse? I dunno, seems like going through those WDs straight up would leave you with a sick feeling in your gut whenever you thought about using after that.
 
DroneLore said:
Do you think going cold turkey decreases the chance of a relapse? I dunno, seems like going through those WDs straight up would leave you with a sick feeling in your gut whenever you thought about using after that.
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I personally found the exact opposite to be true. Cold turkey also leads to an increase in Post Acute Withdrawl syndrome symptoms which IME is the leading cause of relapse. I think it has to do with restoring a balance of chemicals in your brain but im no nuerologist.
 
yeahh i've tried cold turkey and there is a sick feeling in your stumach but the dopes the only thing thats gunna get rid of it that's the thing
 
kikkroxx777 said:
Trip Report?


....Glooduck
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yes kikkroxx i understand that heroin isn't really a "trip" inducing drug and this isn't really an explanation of a trip per-say but, it's a report of my drug use and it was my first post ever so you know i wasn't really sure where to put it and all that, my apologies..
 
Hey, you don't have to apologize to anyone about putting it in here. It's fine, started a good conversation with people that know where you are coming from and what you are going through--Bluelight at it's best! (And if it should be moved, the mods will move it.;)) I was just going to say that if you haven't checked out The Dark Side Forum, you might want to consider starting a thread in there. There is a tremendous amount of experience in the community there and people that are trying to quit something can use it as a daily (hourly!) support system. Good luck and don't give up.<3
 
thank you ! support like that is why i joined this site :) thanks for the advice ill check that out, theres just soo many threads to check out lol. much love
 
Hi I'm new here, I'd first of all like to commend you OP on how brave you are, even though you're anonymous, cos it's not easy to admit to anyone you're addicted to anything, I'm 20 years old and I can't put ciggies down, yet I won't tell people I'm addicted.

I hope it goes well for you, cold turkey must be vile, but if you can go two weeks feeling at the bottom, I'm pretty sure you'll be set to go the rest of your life of it. My second cousin was a heroin addict, she almost died in an alleyway and is now schizophrenic, you don't want to go there mate.

"Good people" shun those who are drug users, yet this sort of community shows exactly how much support users have for each other. And before anyone thinks that I'm a goody goody, I fucking love mdma, sound
 
thank you man, yeah this was the first time i actually came out and admitted it to anyone but myself.. it was a tough decision but i felt like i needed to get it out there, and yeah thoes weeks are already hard enough without the constant body ache and sleepless nights going cold turkey induces.. but i understand i really cannot endup there.. i can't.

and they really do and it's disgusting how much people judge other people especially when their own hands aren't clean but who am i to tell them what to do. just have to ignore them and keep on movin on..
and mdma is an amazing substance hehe<3=].
 
No problem, I think your mind's in the right place if you know that you don't want to end up in a dark place. Keep us posted on how you're getting along.

Who can define what "clean" is at the end of the day? I hate how in the media, if a celebrity gets off drugs they say they're getting "clean", but why does doing drugs make you dirty? By telling people they need to get "clean" puts so much stigma around the subject I'm pretty sure most users don't want to announce to the world their addictions for sake of being shunned. I just find it ironic how stuff like that can be said about one group of addictions, yet those who die from obesity cos they're addicted to fast foods aren't put in the same basket as the "junkies". You're making these decisions because you know what you want from your life, don't let other people make it harder for you than it already is. Like I said earlier, keep us updated on how you're getting along. Best of luck to ya!
 
dopesmoke420 said:
the way I see it as there are two types of heroin users in this world, first there is a "junky", which is what most people think of when they think "heroin", thanks to Nancy Reagan and the War on Drugs. A junky is someone who will sell their (or steal your) TV for a shot. then there is the second type of heroin addict, me, the functional addict.
If you think junkies have a ferocious hunger for heroin, consider spending every single day pretending not to be a junky. It's incredible work. you see, i am just like you, except there is a big part of my life that noone knows about, a big evil maniacal demon who is constantly calling my name, who makes me day dream about registering a shot. it calls, and i answer, whenever it needs me , no matter when or what im doing i must respond. so ill make up any excuse just to go home, go where im safe, and get my fix. you see i have soo many thoughts in my head but i can't get them out because, well all i can think about is pulling back that plunger and seeing that beautiful, milky red blood squirt so graciously up through the syringe and than watch the beautiful mixture dissapear into the crack of my arm.
There is a problem with this though, i'm only 17, and I'm addicted to heroin, yet, I get good grades, i have a job. But i have no savings account, any penny that doesn't go to the bare neccessities of living, goes to her, heroin.
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Forgive me OP, but you don't sound like a functional addict at all. You're only 17 man, you've got good grades and a job? Here's news man, school gets harder and if you don't move up the ladder from where you're working when you're 17 life is not going to be very fulfilling for very long.

See a drug counselor and save your future man.

PS: I finally read the rest of the thread and realised this post of mine was a little redudant. The only place to go from here OP is to think about your future. Yes herion feels good, but do you really want to look back in a decade or two and realise you've done not a single other thing with your life? Would you rather do H, or would you rather live your life is what it comes down to I guess.
 
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you're entitled to you'r opinion no need to ask for forgivness ha :P. but yea i understand that, i got a few boxins and im takin it day by day, todays day one.. i will post an update to this thread when i feel neccessary. In a week or so.
 
Shit you're the same age as me...can't even imagine having to deal with what you're going through at this point in my life. Best of luck to you man, hope everything turns out all right.
 
as someone who's spent years battling heroin addiction including a couple rehab stints, methadone, n finally suboxone which has allowed me tp be 7 months clean now I started out just like you, I was 16 and started dope, was on the needle within a year and like you for years I was a functional addict, no one knew I was addicted tp drugs for years. one hard lesson I learned and hopefully u won't have to is that when it comes to dope its only a matter of time before people find out. this is a fact, eventuALLY IF u use dope the people in your life will find out and also sooner or later you'll lose everything dear to you.

now I'm not telling u tp not use, it wouldn't make any difference, but look at it from a druggy perspective. use dope top much to where. I got dependent then the dope will no longer get u high, you'll use to keep sickness away, but the only enjoyment will be the 5 min or rush n that's it not the 6 hr high u get now also ur tolerance will he so high getting high on any opiate will be difficult. o guess what I'm saying is of ur gonna use try to skip days between sp I don't get physically addicted that way you can enjoy the pure euphoria of dope without any of the things that make dope suck. unfortunately in my experience its impossible tp moderate my dope use.


Ps don't use the veins on ur lower ARM and back of hand those have the most noticeable track marks, try to start hitting in your upper legs, the veins are easy to see nice n blue and thought a little tricky to register they are relatively painless. u think u got no veins, HA! when I was using it took 1 to even 3 hrs to actually hit a vein n then 50/50 I'd still miss. I got used to muscling my shots.
 
boti, i wish i didnt know what you're talking about but i do.. i havn't been getting high of dope for about a month now, i've been shooting up only for the rush and the relief from my withdrawls from it which came on around 5 or 6 hours after my last shot.. so i know what you are saying, and i also have a hard time moderating ill do it once but than the persuasivness kicks in of the dope ha.

also i recently was called down by my counslers in h.s this past week and they accused me of IV'ing heroin , said that someone told my teacher and yeah.. they proceeded to search me and barage me with questions and called my mother, but i didn't have anything on me and i am very convincing so thank god i got out without getting in real trouble.

i use the most usual spot right in the crack of my arms ive tried the lower arm and hands and feet but for some reason can't seem to hit anywhere but my elbow.. i dont know why cuz they are rather nice buldgy veins. and yeh recently all the good veins on my elbow i can't hit and are covered in a hard purple scar cover so many of my shots have missed and been skin poppers cuz after a while i kind of give up after fuckin around in my arm for too long.. i got used to that to.. i feel like i understand where you are comming from
 
also, i have armed myself with some suboxone and am on 2 days off dope so far with a pretty strong morale , lasted longer than any other attempt to quit .. i really want to leave this part of my life behind but it's soo hard to forget.. i can't stop thinking about it
 
Suboxone + Marijuana Maintenance is what finally worked for me when nothing else did. When I was just on suboxone, I found myself constantly fighting the urge to get high, not even just on dope, but cocaine or anything. Once I started smoking weed, these thoughts stopped, and I was finally able to stick with the sub and stop taking days off to shoot dope. While I wouldn't suggest it for everyone, this worked wonders for me and has allowed me to get on with my life and career, so I'm grateful for the help that sub and marijuana have given me.

~CTdopeLove
 
CTdopelove, that is exactly what i have been doing these past 3 days, i smoke weed regularly regardless of the situation im in but i agree with you, that combination kills the thoughts and temptations. 3 days down..
 
HI dmtparadox,

I understand doing it just to prevent the sickness. I found marijuana kept the thoughts at bay for longer periods of time. it also allowed my midn to wander so that I might be able to accomplish simple tasks.
I of course did not sue the needle so I cannot empathize with you there. It is much easier to get off when you have few responsibilities. When you have more adult obligations, it will be harder to explain being constantly sick.
OH, and tolerance sucks.
You write very well for your age. Do you take advanced classes?
Keep us updated.

SF
 
I've found I nice Shroom/MDMA trip always clears my head from addictions, Fight FIRE WITH FIRE. Honestly tho the shrooms will whip you into shape and tell you what you are doing is re tarted, and the MDMA will show you that everything is going to be A ok without lady H =). For real man I tried this combo when I was addicted to K, got me right off that shit, and I suggest the shrooms first then E spread them a week apart at least, but I also suggest you get off Herion for at least a week or two before you try, or else you'll have a bad trip cause you are feeling shitty.
 
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