I just woke up from shooting a score bag i had around 2 or 3 hours man and i just realized the saddest thing ever.
Il never stop.
Its that good - specifically when mixed with ten or twenty blues or most but not all benzodiazapines. That 2minute feeling when you wake up and your legs are numb and your heels hurt from being in the same position for so long. And dont get me started when you FINALLY find a vein - any vein (except groin - il never go there and ive beeen in some situations where ive lost allot of hits). That rush, ahhh i have got one good bag left well, fairly good. But need to save it.
And mind you im on 90mg of methadone a day so heroin is 'supposed' to be weaker when used with it. I find it quite the opposite.
Like tomorrow morning il have my methadone with 20 valium, cook my hit up and then wait 30minutes - smoke about 5 cigs. And then shoot up watching jeremy kyle or watever bullshit is on telly in the morning (although i got addicted back when i used to smoke cannabis......... sigh) or listen to some jim morrison or jimi hendrix and then sit on the end of my bed grab my belt and hit myself up and then just fall back.
JUST TO NOTE - I put my duvet and pillows pushed up like a massive cushion to fall back on. And sometimes i dont even take the syringe out as it wastes valuable seconds of bliss lol. But most times i do.
Heroin is cool guys - shooting it is even nicer but be warned its a lifetime mental addiction. Id reccomend opium - grow and smoke your own opium, its simple and all you need is a pipe, some razor blades and some patience. And maybe some benzodiazapines.
Take it easy everyone and happy days - lets all stay strong.
Please all wish me luck adjusting down on to methadone after this bag is gone, i did have day in hand so it was there when i woke up but my nan forgot to pick it up on saturday - all she needed to do was to call and id have gone down. But now things are all messed up again - for something i didnt do. All the doctors and NHS 24/7 staff say "yeah people find it easy going without for 24 hours" but the staff and doctors have probably never been in that situation. And the addicts that say they were fine were the ones who went out and scored like me. But then again maybe some do, everybodys body chemistry is diffrent.