So last night I bought like 4 or 5 little bags of h, and I ended up in so much pain. Not eating and not being able to stand up definitely made it worse. But I was trying to walk around the house and couldn't stand up and basically had to crawl around the house trying to get ice and water. I finally made it to bed and I still cant barely walk this morning, I'm in a lot of pain and am definitely going have to lay in bed all day, but is this shit going to get better? I should definitely try to eat and luckily I was able to get a big thing of water on my night stand last night, but i want to take a shower and clean up (and uhh, not do this shit again and start getting my life together). I feel like I got hit by a car. I did save the best bag for today though just incase it helps. I moved into a group home recently cause my parents made me, and I've just been fucking up maybe it's the environment, not eating, drinking almost daily and wasting my money getting high. Also theres almost no hot water or water pressure so I haven't even really been showering or washing my clothes. After last night I'm ready to push through this shit and stop drinking daily and borrowing money, and I want to clean up the floors and house which are sticky and disgusting. I hope I dont get kicked out or my parents make me go to rehab. Cause they check my bank account but I really dont want to feel like this ever again and want to work on getting out of here rather than just giving up and doing this, everyone gets high, the place is gross, it's too expensive, people steal eachpthers food, and the amenities like the shower suck. I think it made me kind of just give up instead of working to get out.
Tldr: kind of ranting. But I have little experience with heroin and am in a lot of pain where I can barely walk, when is this going to go away? I didnt sleep either, but I want to hurry up and get up and start getting my shit together.
